Dear Ex-Best Friend,

As I start writing this, I look back on our friendship and wonder where it went wrong. You might be able to pin point a certain instance or maybe it was a bunch of things combined, but I still really can't tell. Maybe it was the time I walked out on you when you did nothing wrong. Or maybe it was that I thought I was so head over heels for the boy you could clearly tell was going to hurt me, but I just refused to listen to you. Or maybe it was just everything running together and ending up in us having our own WWIII. For such a big part of my life you were there. I knew that you were a phone call, quick drive, or a snapchat away if I needed anything. Your family was my family, and vice versa. We dreamed of our future together, and we learned of each other's past.

Nowadays when we see each other, we're friendly, but it's distant. I'll be the first to admit that if I see you pull in to a parking spot near me or I see you just out and about, I'll wait a little longer until you move for me to get out of my car. It's not that I hate you, because I don't. It's not that I don't want to see you, because I do. It's that now we are two different people on different paths of life. Our life goals aren't what they used to be, and that's okay. We grew as people, but instead of growing together, we grew apart.

None of this makes us bad people. Did we make some bad decisions? Definitely. Could we have settled things a better way? Probably. Yes, we've sat down and talked it out, and we've said we can be friends again. But after we had WWIII in our breakup, do you really think we can go back to being friends? In school, we were friends because we saw each other every single day, but now that we're off at college, do we really have time to be friends? With my crazy schedule it's hard to even see my roommate, let alone my friends. I don't know your schedule, but I can only imagine it's crazy like mine.

If you remember anything about me, you'll remember that I try to live with no regrets. But throughout all of the decisions I've made in my life, losing you is the one thing I do regret. I don't look back at our friendship thinking it was a waste. For so many years it was the best thing in my life. While I was writing this, I teared up a little bit. It forced me to think about the good, the bad, and the ugly. Sometimes in life I think we forget to look back at everything, and we only focus on certain things. I know I blamed you for a lot, but I guess now I know there's blame to share. Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you, I have been changed for good. (Yes, I did just quote Wicked--you're very clever.)

I'll love you forever and ever, no matter what,

Your ex-soulmate.