I want to tell you I understand what you are going through, but I hate when people say that bullsh*t to me because how can someone ever truly feel what you’re feeling? I want to understand you though. I care about you and okay, I obsess over sh*t at times because maybe I have issues or maybe I care too much. But, I care about you.

I’ve felt very low at different points in my life and I always felt like a burden to my friends when I couldn’t deal with my difficult times on my own. I didn’t want you to feel like that. I wanted you to feel like you could take the time you needed, but I wanted you to know I’d be there for you if you needed anything. I was down to joke with you and laugh about stupid things.

Like I said, I always worry too much about everything. I was bossy towards my siblings when I was younger because I always wanted the best for all of them and I still do. I give people advice when they probably don’t want it because I want them to know I’m trying to put myself in their shoes by telling them how I would react to the situation. I want to try to understand everyone whether I can truly feel what they're feeling or not.

It'll be weeks before you read this, so I just want to say: I hope you’re okay. I hope the sun is shining where you are and I hope you’re happy. I don’t know if I’m writing this for just you, to put my feelings out there, or for us. I don’t know where things are going or if anything will ever work out, but I know that you make me laugh and I felt like I could be straight up with you about everything. I hope you’re feeling better and that you remember your worth like you always told me to.