It's that time of the summer again... when I all I can think about is going back to school. Although I love my time at Stony Brook, I can't help but feel a little anxious, a little scared, and a little apprehensive about going back for another semester. Every semester is a roller coaster. Many go from starting out great and motivated, and then we hit those mid-semester blues, and then we somehow make it through finals. Every summer around this time, I start to think about the past semesters and how stressful they were.
All the tests, projects, lab reports, and social dramas that took place come flooding through my memory. The horrible dining hall food and shared showers haunt me in my nightmares. Not to mention all the walking. The truth is, there are so many bad things about college. Classes are demanding and so are social pressures and honestly, spending the summer in my cave with my Netflix shows, homemade food, and own bathroom just make me dread college life even more.
I will never be ready for the endless amounts of studying or the horrendously uncomfortable mattress. And don't even get me started about the WALKING!
I feel like every semester slaps me in the face and even though I spend the few weeks leading up to the start mentally preparing myself, I never am. No matter how many times I plan my days out or set goals for myself, every single semester is the same. A whole lot of crying, procrastinating and cramming.
But don't get me wrong, college has its moments. Like the days where you're on your A-game and get everything done. You even have time to chill out with friends AND you go to the gym! Those are the days that make it worth it.
So every time I get sucked into the pessimistic tunnel of pre-school anxiety, I pull myself out by recollecting all the things that make college great. Like eating pancakes for dinner and not being judged for it, spending the day exploring with friends, and occasionally doing well on tests.
Good luck this semester!