Incessantly repeating like a broken record in my head, lately my thoughts entail project deadlines, test preparations, and club commitments -- and that's merely the schoolwork. While I know I've spent countless hours in the library or made a fool of myself practicing my speech to a wall, people often doubt my commitment. Not only my commitment to current classes, but my commitment to stay motivated and persevere to finish school. There have been moments where I have struggled to find motivation, although that doesn't imply I am going to ditch the college degree. I've worked immensely hard these past years, and I wouldn't sacrifice the opportunity to become a college graduate because of a little lapse of judgment here and there. If we all simply gave up when the going got tough, where would anyone be in this world.
With all of this being said, it is completely acceptable to have those moments where the going did get tough. These moments of doubt always surface around this time of year. By this time, I mean the time where the holidays are quickly approaching and the desire to just relax and head home seems irresistible. This can cause a plummet in one's motivation fairly easily. However, it isn't merely the tempting adventures awaiting on holiday break but the impending doom of our class assignments. The end of the semester is like a flashing WARNING sign of extremely stressful, long projects. I'm bracing for sleepless nights consumed with slaphappy tiredness, too many cups of coffee, and the occasionally moment where I'll contemplate why I procrastinated. As these factors clearly affect our motivation, we must remember what all of this struggle is worth.
Remembering the importance of my schooling, I know that I have to finish the semester strong. On my last day I might have bags underneath my eyelids and a torn-up baseball cap covering my bed head, but I made it. While I realize that taking time to indulge in my laziness is important, I also need to accomplish work at some point. I took enough time stuffing my face with pumpkin cookies and binge watching a new series on Netflix. Now I have to get back to business, working hard and remembering why I want to be successful.
It's easy to sit here though and just recognize I need to whip myself into shape -- I actually need to aggressively tackle my class assignments. Coming home, putting in my headphones, and busting out a few essays has to become my new accustomed schedule for finals. It will be difficult, and the unmotivated chip on my shoulder is creating every possible diversion; however, we have to find our motivation sometime. In this world, we can't merely wait around for luck to just fall into our laps and offer the opportunity of a lifetime. Hey, if you're that person, more gusto to you. I'll find comfort in knowing that my motivation and determination are ultimately what will leave me standing strong at the end of the semester and closer toward a college degree. Times of doubt are difficult, but finishing the semester strong is what I need to be focusing on in my life.