The fear of ending up alone has always been something that I have struggled with. I see everyone around me so happy and in love, and I can't help but wonder if that will ever be me. What if I die before I find it? What if I just grow old completely alone? Irrational thoughts like these threaten to fill my head every second of the day. But then I remind myself of all the great things my period of singleness can bring.

Being single can suck at times but that does not mean it isn't necessary. Even though I hate it, I know that being by myself is something I honestly need right now. I'm not ready for a serious relationship and I know that. At this certain time in my life, I am trying to put my focus on my purpose in God and in this crazy world.

I want to be a godly, dependable, and loving wife for my husband one day. Things like that do not come overnight. They come with growth and maturity. With that being said, I am trying to use my unlimited time to reach that goal. I have been able to focus solely on things like my career, school, and my walk with God. All these things are leading me down the long road of who will hopefully become in the future.

This period can also make you realize what you have already. I tend to neglect the great relationships I have with my amazing friends and family because I am too concerned about my own selfish wants.

My longing for a special someone can sometimes make me forget who I have in my life right now. These extraordinary people have made who I am today and have loved me more than I could ever imagine. Even if I never find the love of my life I will always be surrounded by ones who care.

Even though I hate this lonely period of my life I have grown to appreciate it. It gives me time to figure out who I am, treasures the important relationships in my life, and trust God even more because I know he has a great future in store for me.