In life, there are many choices that lead to changes. Change can be bad. Change can be good. And sometimes, change has to happen. Going through college, this was a very hard concept for me to grasp because I was constantly going through changes and chasing consistency.
One of the biggest challenges involving change for me was deciding between what I wanted to be rather than doing something I was good at.
For me, I personally really liked and enjoyed science, which pushed me to pursue a career in the medical field. I had taken an internship my senior year of high school involving medical training that I really enjoyed. Also having a family member in the medical field made me more excited to become a part of it. Starting college, my world was rocked. I quickly learned that enjoying science courses and being able to pass them were two totally different things. Loving and enjoying science would not land me in the medical field because I would never get into medical school unless I could get past chemistry and other science courses.
For a year-and-a-half, I fought myself telling myself it would get better and that I could do it. I didn't miss class. I skipped out on social events. I pulled multiple all nighters and did everything I could to get my grades up. Something I thought I loved turned into something that was destroying me. The once ever present smile on my face disappeared. My eyes didn't light up but instead became low and framed by dark circles. I wasn't sleeping, barely eating, and all together my healthy lifestyle was diminishing. My family and friends were worried because it was damaging my relationship with them. I was not always the same happy girl I was. I was always on edge and worrying. Stress became an everyday factor in my life.
Finally, I switched. I switched to a major that had courses that played to my strengths. I went pre med to pre law. At first, I didn't think I'd enjoy it. I thought that although I had the proper skills to do well in the courses, I wouldn't enjoy it. However, I quickly learned how interesting it was and found myself loving my major. Everyone around me noticed my mood change and how a weight seemed to be lifted off my shoulders. A decision I was beating myself up about for over a year turned out to be one of the best decisions that I could have ever made.
Change is not easy, but it's worth it.