Dear forever, you don’t scare me.

Some people say that maybe one day, we will be able to live forever. That somehow, we will manage to trick nature into allowing us to stay on this earth forever and not experience anything more than what we have. It’s as if people forget, that the truth to what happens after you die, is still unknown to us.

Yes, everyone has their theories and what they want to believe. But no one knows the true answer to what happens after you die. Maybe there is a heaven and hell. Maybe you are reborn into another life. Maybe there’s absolutely nothing after you die.

That’s probably why some people are so fascinated with the thought of forever. They want things to last forever because of the fear that when they die, there may be nothing more. They think that tricking nature into allowing them to experience more life rather than death, will somehow make them feel complete.

I don't think anything is supposed to last in the literal form of forever. I really don't.

Forever has no limit according to most. Forever is a constant that has always existed and always will. Do we really want to live forever? Do we want to experience this world over and over again? What will happen when we become tired of what’s around us and nothing new is being done to excite us? What will become of us when living forever rises above the human connection we have? When we lose the things we love most with the obsession that we can live to see more or that something better will come along as we wait forever. How will we cope with knowing that there is a chance that forever will not give us the same feeling as time? All the possibilities of something new, slowly slipping out of our reach.

How could you live knowing not one thing is the same? No matter how many years you live, you won't find the things that made you feel a certain happiness ever again. Love isn't the same for everyone, sex isn't the same, words aren't the same, nothing is truly the same. You can write the same word over and over again, it has no meaning to you until one day you feel it all. You feel every word and it's no longer the same.

Living forever will not give you satisfaction. It will not appease your soul. I could love someone until the day I die, but it would be until the day I die, because after that moment, technically that feeling no longer exists in the world. Maybe my soul will continue to love, but it won't actually exists.

Forever cannot exist. If you want forever, you make everyday count that you can. Forever are the days you have here. Now until you take your last breath. If you were to not wake up tomorrow, and be surrounded by nothing, there’s a possibility you could live up the memory of all you did. All your forever in one. Some of us don’t crave forever because we are satisfied with the thought that we can experience this for what it is. We don’t want to prolong our lives into the chance of experiencing misery forever. We are willing to live every moment like it’s our last and have a memory of the beauty of life.

So you can keep your ideas and dreams of forever. My forever is happening now until the day my story stops being written.