Do you remember filling out college applications, and looking at the section where to choose your major? Do you remember that feeling of panic thinking that at the age of 18, you have to figure out what you want to do with the rest of your life?
It's those feelings, those times when your stomach does a little backflip and your heart begins facing. It's at those times when you can feel the rest of your life. Maybe you get it when you make a bad decision.
Or maybe you get it when you walk in to change your major for the fifth time. Or possibly you get it when you sit across from someone who means the world to you. Whatever gives it to you, you know the feeling. It's that feeling that makes you think about everything. Everything in your life up until this point; everything that is about to happen after this point.
It's a vibe. And sometimes it's a high.
But mostly, it's like electricity flowing through your body, igniting your life.
And it's in those little moments that fear creeps up on you out of nowhere. The fear of not knowing what is next. Or where to step. Or if you're even going the right way.
It's okay to not know. It's okay to not know where to go next. Or what to say next. Or what to do next. It's really okay because if in that moment everything feels okay, let it be.
There are so few moments in our lives that everything feels okay. And that electricity is in your bones and in your fingertips, and we so often let the fear of the unknown take it away from us. Who cares what happens next. Or where you go next. Or if you say something so foolish it hurts. You only get so many opportunities like these.
You only get so many times to feel free, and open to life, and ready for anything life gives you next. You only get so many times to change your life.
We're supposed to have everything figured out. And you're supposed to have a full future of success ahead of you. But when does that ever happen? Life is rocky and fun, and a rollercoaster of emotions. Why simplify it to what we're supposed to do when we could just live it however the cards are dealt to us.
I think deep down, we are all a little scared. We're scared letting people down. We're scared of not doing what we're supposed to do. We're scared that if we live in the moment, we'll forget the future. But who cares? You're only this young once, and you only have so many moment of pure freedom before this rollercoaster is done. Don't let them go.