I think every girl has gone through an experience where she has been all about a guy and ready to date him, and he led her to believe he was searching for that, too. However, once he gets the cookie, YES, THAT COOKIE, it's a different story. The annoying "I'm not looking for anything serious" phrase is uttered, and you're left wondering what you did wrong.
Well, guess what, girly? YOU DID NOTHING WRONG.
You did exactly what every drama, romcom, and soap opera trained you to do. You flirted and prepped yourself to be with someone and then once you thought it was real, you gave him some of your soul.
Guys, why do you do this? Why do you pretend that you want to be with someone just to get sex? You know there are girls out there that will just give you the sex. For all, you know you could have played the girl who would have been just fine with the sex. Now both of your time is wasted.
It is okay to want nothing more than sex; I am not saying anything is wrong with that. I'm saying there's something wrong with pretending that you want more than sex when you have no intention of continuing any interaction after you've captured some of their soul.
I know I am quite frankly tired of opening up to guys about my life, my secrets, my fears, my dreams, and my desires just for them to not even care the next day. If you can't tell me you only want sex from me, then you never deserved the sex in the first place, coward.
Because of this spree of bad luck, I am going to do a lot of soul locking away. I am going to do a lot of not letting just any old fellow get to know the darkest and brightest thing about me. I am taking a break from searching for someone else, and just working on myself and relationships with people who matter and don't just want to grab a cookie here and there.
I encourage any woman or man that is tired of literally letting people f**k them over to give themselves this sort of cleanse for a while. Who knows, at the end of it, we may find a new peace of mind.
Maybe our souls will get stronger along the way.