You were all in from day one. The first moment you saw him, you knew he was something special. You instantly gave yourself to him without even realizing. You tried to play it cool, act somewhat unavailable, but that never really worked out for you. You were all his, but he was not yours.

He gave you his love in doses. If you asked him to meet up for lunch he would say he was busy, but if you called him to come over around midnight, he was already on his way. He gave you just enough love to hope for more, but never enough to feel whole. Never enough for it to feel like more than an infrequent fling of opportunity.

He calls you when he is lonely, on his way home from the bar with his friends who all get to go home to their girlfriends. You think he calls you because there is a chance that maybe one day you'll be the girl he comes home to every night. But then you wake up the next morning to an empty bed and no scent of coffee brewing. You knew it was too good to be true, yet you will never decline his 2 a.m. phone calls.

If he doesn't text you in the afternoon to see how your day is going, it isn't because he is busy. I'm sorry to say this, but it's probably because he doesn't care. You only exist to him when it is on his own time, yet he exists to you in every moment. Do you see how wrong that is? Why would you settle for someone who only gives you 20% when you can enjoy your life and wait for someone who will give you the full 100%?

If he doesn't want all of you then you should want none of him. You shouldn't want him in the middle of the night when the blankets aren't warm enough, or in the middle of the day when you're having lunch with your friends. You shouldn't want him at all, yet you do.

I hope that soon enough something ignites inside of you and you realize that you are too good to be a second option. You are too special to be somebody's back up plan. You are good enough for the real thing.