I bought a woman dinner today
Because she reminded me of you.
She couldn't find her wallet and only had a few dollar bills.
She was thin, and her eyes were sunken in
Just the way yours were.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because she was fidgeting around, and I knew food would help her sober up.
She said "sweetie, I can't let you do that,"
I told her that it was fine.
She insisted that I take her last few dollars
I told her to keep it.
I made a woman cry today
And I could only think of you.
She thanked me and said bless you more times than I can remember.
I told her to have a good night as I walked away.
The men left behind me
Talked about how great it was
That people still cared about other people.
"There's still good in the world."
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I wasn't there to buy you food when you needed it.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because your brother puts money in my bank account when I'm broke.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because we live in a world where drug addicts are told they deserve to starve.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because her smile reminded me of yours.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I hope someone bought you dinner when you were struggling to be clean.
I bought a woman dinner today
And would not look her in the eye
Because I didn't want her to see someone in me.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I wanted to do a good deed.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I can really use the good karma these days.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I wanted her to know that someone will always be there when times are rough.
I wanted so badly to be her "sign"
From the universe, from whatever God she believes in, from a guardian.
I bought a woman dinner today
And when my friends asked me why I said
"I don't know, she looked hungry."
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I've been trying to find closure since the day you fucking died.
I bought a woman dinner today
And my friend said, "she probably does that all the time, she's probably just a moocher."
I bought a woman dinner today
Because you would have done the same thing.
I bought a woman dinner today
In the hopes that I could finally let go of whatever the fuck I'm feeling
But I've only trapped myself more.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I was hoping to let go
But I find myself clinging more and more and more.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I hope you saw me, from where ever you are...
I hope you saw me
I hope that you smiled when I got home and cried about you again.
I hope that I made you proud, because even though you left this world all too soon, I still do little things that you would do.
I bought a woman dinner today
Because I wanted to buy dinner for you.
You and Bubs playing beerpong.
You don't even drink, and neither does Bubs.