Do you ever sit down to study and just think, I can’t do this right now? You sit there and stare at your computer screen, out of the window, daydream, or all of the above? Me too, actually that is what I am currently doing. I should be writing an outline for my speech about the Eagles but I have no drive. Instead, I am jamming with me, myself, and I the middle of Starbucks. I am looking around at the other people here and see them working very hard and I think to myself, why can’t I be doing that right now? How do I become so easily distracted? Why, when I sit down to study, do I do anything except study?

There are too many things running through my mind that it is making it nearly impossible to focus on just one. I often think of scenarios, all of the school work I have to get done, everyone I want to talk to, all the laundry I have to do, and much more racing through my mind. Sometimes I have very random thoughts like what it would be like if I was a country singer or imagining myself sitting outside a little gelato shop in Italy.

I am thinking about how much I want to go home because I miss my mom, dad, and dog. Last semester I was fine in college for a few months but sitting here, a month into the Spring semester and I am already willing to leave. Why is this semester so much different than the Fall semester? Good question, I have no idea. It could be that after spending a month at home for winter break, I was used to seeing them every day. Maybe it’s because I am taking more classes with heavier loads and everything in my mind is piling on top of one another, maybe as the Eagles season comes to an end I think of how I should be watching with my family and how much I wanted to be watching the Super Bowl with them.

I worked so hard during Fall semester and my work paid off. However, now I am so tired of spending all of my time studying and doing so much work. Instead, I just sit and stare at my computer screen listening to Country songs, hearing to every single word imagining myself in this song, going through the scenario the artists are singing about. Sometimes some of the songs bring up a part of my past, making me think about that. Or, the biggest issue, is I will think back to a past event and begin to overthink.

Studying is challenging, sitting down working for hours on end is exhausting. I begin to have trouble concentrating, but I will try to push through it. I know I will finish studying if I sit and focus, rather than daydreaming. I just need to change up what I am focusing on every now and then so I will stay interested in what I am doing.