Things have a way of turning out for the better.
My depression gave way to determination.
Hard and heavy breakups are now glimpses of the past. Things that once looked so important, like life or death, seem almost dumb looking back.
I write this not to undermine any feeling of depression or the pain of a breakup, but to let you understand that it will, in fact, get better.
I used to think I was going to be dead by the end of high school. My freshman year was the start of an emotional roller coaster that would take years to finally overcome.
Looking back, I remember how much focus I put into what the popular girl in my Music Theory Class would think of me if I said the wrong things, and what she would say to her friends.
Now?
Now I don't even waste time remembering, and her name has come and gone like my ability to explain a major chord progression.
Understand that these problems are everything and high school is probably one of the worst experiences if you don't fit into the mold others want. But instead of focusing on the negative, the heartache, and the problems, focus on the wonderful things that are coming for you.
If you ever feel inadequate, or you feel as though you have so much pain in your life, keep fighting every day to keep going. Challenge yourself each day to do something that implies self-care.
For me, I spent a large deal of time with my school work. At first, I took it as a way to kill time before bed, but it slowly went back to being something I am passionate about.
Looking back, I can see just how my anxiety and my depression gave way to something that has inspired me to do right by others.
You can do it. Pretty soon, things are going to get easier day by day, until you finally feel right again.