Dear year ago me,
Hey. I know you’re feeling pretty rough right now. I know that you feel swallowed by this dark hole, wrapped up in anxiety, and constant questioning. I know that you are in the darkest place you have ever been. But trust me, it is going to get a whole lot better.
It’s funny because no one would have guessed. You put a smile on your face whenever you talked to someone, you hid the tears and tucked away the worrying from view. You went through a lot over this particular spring semester. The people, events and circumstances weren’t lining up. The anxiety worsened. Things just weren’t going well.
I am here to tell you though that the front you’re putting up right now helps. The war in your head lightens. The push against the negativity is working. It may not seem like it now, but you’re going to get through it. Oh, and keep playing the song “Every Storm Runs Out of Rain” on repeat. As embarrassing as it is, it helped.
Right now, you’re in a transition stage. Realize that the summer before your junior year is going to be filled with immense growth. You found vegetarianism and it’s transforming your life. Your perception shifted and your consciousness deepened. You’re about to dive into major reading and researching about the environment, health and happiness over the summer, but it’s going to mold you into the person you aspire to be. Your morals have changed. Some people won’t understand. It’s still a good thing.
Dear year ago me, I know it’s hard. I know that you are looking at everything in your life and wanting to give up. This dark place has consumed you, but it is not you. You’re so used to people commenting on how bright and happy you always are. That same you is going to come back. I’m here now telling you, you are back.
It’s confusing to understand how this kind of unhappiness overtook you, but just remember nothing defines you. You are constantly creating yourself, you are constantly choosing how bad you want to feel happiness. You did some soul searching. You fought the negativity. You found yourself through it all.
Dear year ago me, your life a year later is filled with opportunity. You are no where near the person you used to be. You transformed your life and doors opened for you. You regained your light and positivity. You’re back and killing it.
Love,
Today me
Oh, one more thing, you did find the right major and you’re loving it !!!
