Dear Self,
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the things I've put you through and for all the situations that could have been avoided by me choosing differently. I'm sorry that I'm your toughest critic and that I can't always see your worth. I'm sorry I'm always hard on you and never let you have much of a break. I'm sorry for all the times I've pushed you, physically and sometimes emotionally, too far. I'm sorry for all the wrongs I've done and let happen to you.
However, I'm not sorry for everything you've learned because of what you've gone through. I'm not sorry because without being in those situations and going through those experiences, you wouldn't be who you are today. You wouldn't be the strong person that isn't afraid to stand up and face their fears. You wouldn't be the person that is able to empathize with people because something they are going through is similar to something you have gone through. You wouldn't be you and I don't know how to feel about that.
It's ok to not be smiling 24/7. It's ok to feel like you're going to break down at any moment. It's ok to have laughing fits with your friends where you end up laughing so hard you're crying and your sides hurt. It's ok to feel and to not be afraid when you feel too much. It's ok to not have everything together all the time, don't try to be perfect because you'll feel like you've let yourself down when you can't reach it.
Don't be afraid to love and take care of yourself. It'll be one of the best things you've ever done.
Love,