They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder. But it not only does just that, but it also seems to take your heart and twist it while throwing your mind for a whirlwind.
The Good
The times we get to spend together mean so much. It tends to only be a few days, but those few days mean that we don't go months without seeing each other. Those few days bring a new sense of hope, love, and desire.
Even planning those times together is exciting because we have all these fun awesome things we want to do together and experience. Each conversation brings up what we want to do next, and it's so fun.
We've formed a routine of sorts that brings some normalcy into our not so normal relationship. We talk on the phone every day after work and before bed. We always say good morning to each other. The little things that allow us to have a sense of being there together make the days much, much easier.
The hugs. Guys...oh my gosh the hugs are just something indescribable. It provides such a sense of security and comfort after going without each other for such a long time. It's such a good feeling.
The Bad
Some days, everything just plain sucks. I feel so alone and like I could drop everything just to drive three hours away to see him, even if it's just for a day.
Night shift months are the worst because our lives are completely opposite - I get up at 7 to go to work 8:30-5:30, he gets off work at 7 am to go sleep until 7 pm when he goes to do it all over again. It is so, so lonely!
The Ugly
The anxieties. My greatest fear is that a) he'll find someone else and b) something will happen at work (he's a police officer) and he won't be coming home. Not being able to physically see him and feel that he's okay is an awful feeling I still haven't adjusted to.
I wouldn't trade my relationship for the world. Going on this journey with my boyfriend is such an amazing blessing and I cannot wait to see where life takes us next. If you're looking at the possibility of doing a long-distance relationship, take that chance - it could turn into the best thing to ever happen to you.