Closing The Door On Sophomore Year

Closing The Door On Sophomore Year

Because your dorm room is your true home away from home.

As I stared at the empty, generic and barren side of the room that once belonged to me, memories flooded my brain. As a sentimental person, I couldn’t help but think of all the mornings I woke up to the sun peering through the cheap, fireproof curtains that hung over the windows. 129 C was more than just a dorm room: it was the place that felt so much like a home away from home. Its walls heard every laugh, and saw every tear. The walls watched my roommate and I try unsuccessfully to uncork a wine bottle, or order Domino’s at 1 a.m. on more Saturday nights than we’d like to admit.

Tacked upon the now plain cinderblocks were my posters of Lana Del Rey, the Beatles, and numerous other miscellaneous decorations. My desk that now looked as if it could belong to anyone once held photos of me and my boyfriend, my nephew, my parents, and cards I received throughout the year. Little notes from my roommate Jane, used to be tacked onto the bulletin board that connected to the back of the desk. I spent hours sitting there; editing papers, studying Spanish vocabulary, or attempting to understand my core required philosophy class. Now, with a realization that proved unforgiving and somewhat unsettling, it looked as if I had never even lived here.

As Jane and I carried the last of my hastily packed bags out to my car, I paused and took in the room once more. Facing my bureau, I opened each drawer quickly, so as to make sure that I wasn’t forgetting anything. I opened the closet door and ran my hand along the shelf. Empty now was the shelf that held all of my miscellaneous items: my cheap pair of cat ears I bought for Halloween, shampoo bottles and other toiletries that were once mere clutter. Closing my closet door (that never used to close due to my coat hanger) I remembered trying on an outfit, or multiple, for a night out. Jane and I would be lying on our beds, watching Netflix or talking, and we’d somehow find the energy to get ready.

It was always our thing: blasting Spotify, rummaging through our closets for a decent outfit, and haphazardly preparing our drinks, hoping they’d taste somewhat good. We’d quickly put them into tumblers and make our way to my boyfriend’s room, where we’d hang out with the rest of our friends, sometimes not even going to parties. I wouldn’t trade those nights for anything; even when we would walk off campus and the cops would shut down the parties. With a fridge now emptied and unplugged, we used to store our wine, that’d we’d somehow uncork and share with our friend Kate. Embodying the roles as authentic college students, we’d drink wine out of plastic cups and talk for hours. Our little fridge served us well: aside from not being able to store a large pizza box. That proved inconvenient on a couple of occasions.

I closed the door to 129 C with great happiness yet with great sadness. The room that once belonged to Jane and me now belonged to no one. Next year, when a pair of lucky rising sophomores move into 129 C, I hope they have as much fun as we did. I hope they realize that being in a freshman dorm for your sophomore year can be a blessing in disguise. It’s the opportunity to laugh at freshmen being freshmen, but to also help them along the way. 129 C, as Jane perfectly summed up, was our “nook.”

As first time roommates, Jane and I formed a newfound coexistence that lasted without conflict from late August until May. We found happiness in each other that made coming back to the room at the end of the day both rewarding and comfortable. Cheers to sophomore year, and cheers to the final two years to come.

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I'm The Girl Without A 'Friend Group'

And here's why I'm OK with it


Little things remind me all the time.

For example, I'll be sitting in the lounge with the people on my floor, just talking about how everyone's days went. Someone will turn to someone else and ask something along the lines of, "When are we going to so-and-so's place tonight?" Sometimes it'll even be, "Are you ready to go to so-and-so's place now? Okay, we'll see you later, Taylor!"

It's little things like that, little things that remind me I don't have a "friend group." And it's been like that forever. I don't have the same people to keep me company 24 hours of the day, the same people to do absolutely everything with, and the same people to cling to like glue. I don't have a whole cast of characters to entertain me and care for me and support me. Sometimes, especially when it feels obvious to me, not having a "friend group" makes me feel like a waste of space. If I don't have more friends than I can count, what's the point in trying to make friends at all?

I can tell you that there is a point. As a matter of fact, just because I don't have a close-knit clique doesn't mean I don't have any friends. The friends I have come from all different walks of life, some are from my town back home and some are from across the country. I've known some of my friends for years, and others I've only known for a few months. It doesn't really matter where they come from, though. What matters is that the friends I have all entertain me, care for me, and support me. Just because I'm not in that "friend group" with all of them together doesn't mean that we can't be friends to each other.

Still, I hate avoiding sticking myself in a box, and I'm not afraid to seek out friendships. I've noticed that a lot of the people I see who consider themselves to be in a "friend group" don't really venture outside the pack very often. I've never had a pack to venture outside of, so I don't mind reaching out to new people whenever.

I'm not going to lie, when I hear people talking about all the fun they're going to have with their "friend group" over the weekend, part of me wishes I could be included in something like that. I do sometimes want to have the personality type that allows me to mesh perfectly into a clique. I couldn't tell you what it is about me, but there is some part of me that just happens to function better one-on-one with people.

I hated it all my life up until very recently, and that's because I've finally learned that not having a "friend group" is never going to be the same as not having friends.

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15 Thing Only Early 2000's Kids Will Understand

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This is it early 2000's babies, a compilation finally made for you. This list is loaded with things that will make you swoon with nostalgia.

1. Not being accepted by the late 90's kids.


Contrary to what one may think, late 90's and early 00's kids had the same childhood, but whenever a 00's kid says they remember something on an "only 90's kids will understand" post they are ridiculed.

2. Fortune tellers.


Every day in elementary school you would whip one of these bad boys out of your desk, and proceed to tell all of your classmates what lifestyle they were going to live and who they were going to marry.


You could never read this book past 8 o'clock at night out of fear that your beloved pet rabbit would come after you.

4. Silly bands.

You vividly remember begging your parents to buy you $10 worth of cheap rubber bands that vaguely resembles the shape of an everyday object.

5. Parachutes.

The joy and excitement that washed over you whenever you saw the gym teacher pull out the huge rainbow parachute. The adrenaline that pumped through your veins whenever your gym teacher tells you the pull the chute under you and sit to make a huge "fort".

6. Putty Erasers

You always bought one whenever there was a school store.

7. iPod shuffle.

The smallest, least technological iPpd apple has made, made you the coolest kid at the bus stop.

8. "Education Connection"

You knew EVERY wood to the "Education Connection" commercials. Every. Single.Word.

9. " The Naked Brothers Band"

The "Naked Brothers Band" had a short run on Nickelodeon and wrote some absolute bangers including, "Crazy Car' and "I Don't Wanna Go To School"

10. Dance Dance Revolution

This one video game caused so many sibling, friend, and parent rivalries. This is also where you learned all of your super sick dance moves.

11. Tamagotchi

Going to school with fear of your Tamagotchi dying while you were away was your biggest worry.

12. Gym Scooters

You, or somebody you know most likely broke or jammed their finger on one of these bad boys, but it was worth it.

13. Scholastic book fairs

Begging your parents for money to buy a new book, and then actually spending it on pens, pencils, erasers, and posters.


Who knew that putting yogurt in a plastic tube made it taste so much better?

15. Slap Bracelets

Your school probably banned these for being "too dangerous".

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