As I start repacking up my room to go back to school, I start thinking about the way I left my college before. Anxious to get home to my normal, stress-free life. Happy to come back to my definite friends that I made four years back instead of four weeks ago. Relieved to be finished my school work and being able to sleep 'till 2 pm and not regret it when I wake up.

I've honestly changed in the six months that I've been a graduate of high school, and freshman in college. I've been depressed that things have changed (because I hate change), I've been eating sporadically and sometimes not at all, I've been reluctant to get up and go to the gym, and more happy to sit in and watch the latest netflix series than going out with new friends. All of which-I learned- is completely normal.

As the ball dropped and I grabbed my boyfriend to have the perfect new years eve's kiss. I vowed not only to myself but to my friends, family, boyfriend to try my hardest to keep myself happy and realize that I'm not alone.

New year, new me..

I vowed to put myself out there and talk to as many people as I can. If I feel lonely reach out to my friends at school and ask to grab some grub instead of sitting in my room telling myself that I'm really not that hungry. Get involved in college- no matter how small it is. Try my hardest to realize that high school was a year ago, and no matter what I do- I can't get it back. So live in the present and work to making the next four years ones to remember.

Keep healthy, and not just eating healthy but working out and stay in a good state of mind. Push myself to go to the gym at least for an hour and find a close friend who has the same goals as me.

So cliche to use the phrase "new year, new me" but working to achieve success in making yourself a healthier, strong human being isn't. Being depressed isn't something to be ashamed about and working to want to get out of that funk is truly inspiring. 2017 isn't a year to dwell on the past and reverse back into that funk, it's a year for change (not scary kind) it's a year to recreate yourself and happiness.