It feels like forever since I've held you,
The you who is there,
The one who once loved without care,
Not the you, I see now who is arrested with a blank stare.
Pills cover the floor,
Blood from the poison needles drips in the sink.
We have gone too far to ever go back now,
But I wish you could see what you use to mean to me,
Before I became numb to the pain.
Do not act as if you do not know,
Playing dumb, forgetting you can speak.
Your face does not look the same,
It is scarred and bruised,
As if you are a canvas of the horrors you have seen.
Your lips do not taste the same,
They are tainted with the sadness in the smoke you blow.
Choking on the words you never speak,
Watching you rips me apart,
We once spoke with ease,
Danced in the rain,
You held me in your arms and we read poetry,
We were reckless and free,
I truly believe you once loved me.
Now I find myself alone in this empty home,
Sitting on the cold floor,
White powder decorates my clothes as if it belongs,
Ringing in my ears,
I become dizzy trying to forget about all of the years,
Looking in the mirror,
Searching for that old light that used to be in my eyes,
But the person staring back at me is a stranger.