What Its Like Having Small Boobs

In A World Of Self-Love, My A-Cup Chest Weighs Me Down More Than Double D's Would

I wanted bigger boobs so I could look like the other girls and spent the second decade of my life trying to overcome that.


It was a pivotal time in my 12-year-old life when I got my first real bra. So pivotal that it was like the scene in Mulan when decided she would take her father's place in the imperial army and fight as his "son" kind of pivotal. Now, I did not risk my life or my family's honor when I got what I thought was a magical piece of underwear but something was at risk and it was my self-confidence. My mom handed me a bra, size 36A and I was already crushed. We went home and I tried on the bra. I remember it, it was blue with white polka dots and adorable, and I didn't fill it out.

Middle school was not exactly a difficult time for me, however, I noticed I did not look like the other girls. Other girls had boobs. Boobs. Those spectacular round orbs of fat. And they filled out their push-up bras amazingly. I would then look at myself and, wow, it felt like showing up to a party and not being able to find the dog to avoid social interaction. Uncomfortable and disheartened.

I would pray for my chest to grow. I would pray to have bigger boobs. Katherine Heigel prayed for big boobs. Why not try it? It obviously worked for her. I just wanted to fit in. I really thought the epitome of being pretty was having a chest. Who was there to tell me I was wrong?

Not too long ago, this got so bad I started taking supplements to get my chest to grow. I actually turned out to be thinning my blood while taking these supplements and almost passed out when going for a run one morning. I had become so self-conscious after someone close to me uttered something about my chest that I began to hate my body for not giving me fat on my chest, that I began to destroy my health! Beauty is pain, but at what cost?

Not having something that society puts on a high pedestal can be hard. Society really enjoys doing that. This article was not to shame girls that do have boobs. I have hips and they bring their own struggles like how having a bigger chest does to girls' backs. Just putting it out there that even a bralette doesn't look all that good on me.

I think it is a valuable lesson to acknowledge what you don't have, but don't dwell on it. Focus on the good of what you do have and make it work. Happiness starts with yourself. And while coming over self-consciousness is easier said than done, you deserve the confidence to love the body you are in.

I have learned to work with the assets I have been given if you catch my drift. I hope that all girls learn to accomplish loving the skin they're in because I know how difficult it can be. I complained about as something as minuscule as boobs and there are girls dealing with far more. After learning my lesson and following my path I just hope they realize how beautiful they truly are.

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If You've Ever Been Called Overly-Emotional Or Too Sensitive, This Is For You

Despite what they have told you, it's a gift.

Emotional: a word used often nowadays to insult someone for their sensitivity towards a multitude of things.

If you cry happy tears, you're emotional. If you express (even if it's in a healthy way) that something is bothering you, you're sensitive. If your hormones are in a funk and you just happen to be sad one day, you're emotional AND sensitive.

Let me tell you something that goes against everything people have probably ever told you. Being emotional and being sensitive are very, very good things. It's a gift. Your ability to empathize, sympathize, and sensitize yourself to your own situation and to others' situations is a true gift that many people don't possess, therefore many people do not understand.

Never let someone's negativity toward this gift of yours get you down. We are all guilty of bashing something that is unfamiliar to us: something that is different. But take pride in knowing God granted this special gift to you because He believes you will use it to make a difference someday, somehow.

This gift of yours was meant to be utilized. It would not be a part of you if you were not meant to use it. Because of this gift, you will change someone's life someday. You might be the only person that takes a little extra time to listen to someone's struggle when the rest of the world turns their backs.

In a world where a six-figure income is a significant determinant in the career someone pursues, you might be one of the few who decides to donate your time for no income at all. You might be the first friend someone thinks to call when they get good news, simply because they know you will be happy for them. You might be an incredible mother who takes too much time to nurture and raise beautiful children who will one day change the world.

To feel everything with every single part of your being is a truly wonderful thing. You love harder. You smile bigger. You feel more. What a beautiful thing! Could you imagine being the opposite of these things? Insensitive and emotionless?? Both are unhealthy, both aren't nearly as satisfying, and neither will get you anywhere worth going in life.

Imagine how much richer your life is because you love other's so hard. It might mean more heartache, but the reward is always worth the risk. Imagine how much richer your life is because you are overly appreciative of the beauty a simple sunset brings. Imagine how much richer your life is because you can be moved to tears by the lessons of someone else's story.

Embrace every part of who you are and be just that 100%. There will be people who criticize you for the size of your heart. Feel sorry for them. There are people who are dishonest. There are people who are manipulative. There are people who are downright malicious. And the one thing people say to put you down is "you feel too much." Hmm...

Sounds like more of a compliment to me. Just sayin'.

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Life Is So Much More Than Ourselves

The lives we live are really so much bigger than just ourselves.


I hope people hear this loud and clear when I say that this generation of people and quite frankly our society as a whole has become one of the most selfish to date. I really hope people reading this don't take it as me calling people out, "throwing shade" or bashing humanity, I'm just trying to put out a call to action but in a more blunt way.

This generation subconsciously lives by the "me, my, mine" lifestyle. Everything is all about us, and what we want and immediate satisfaction or gratification from the things that we do in life. We always want someone to notice what we are doing, that we did it and we want to be acknowledged for it. Our wants and desires power so much of what we do and how we react to what others do and so on and so forth. Also, kind of piggybacking on that, we tend to believe or live by the idea that, "yeah it happens, but it's never gonna happen to me" which can be a major issue when it comes to decision making. This is because we don't think about how it affects anyone but ourselves, usually in the immediate sense rather than the long term.

With that being said it can become an issue when we choose to ignore the other things going on around us like, "oh, someone else will get it." and then things like the trash epidemic and the state at which our planet and country is in now. We have become so self-absorbed that it's to hell with everything else. The places that we call home and the world that we know is falling apart and we are all just gonna sit by and watch like nothing is happening.

I am tired of the mentality that we as a society live in, and how we try to desperately to look great on social media but do nothing about it in real life. It is time that things change and we are the ones changing it.

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