That feeling. That stinging, throat-in-lump feeling. That feeling that you get when it finally hits you that you've lost someone. Your time with them has finally come to an end. They came, they served their purpose, they taught you lessons, but now it's time for them to go. I can think of them as wasted times, but that would be a lie. Through every ending I've had, I learned something new.
The first love with many lessons
You taught me everything. You showed me what I wanted. You were my first love.
You set my expectations so incredibly high, that it'll be hard to find someone that compares to you. We grew together for so long, that I could never forget you.
. . but you also taught me what pain is. You showed me what it's like to be broken. You were my first heartbreak.
By now I hope that you've realized that not a single girl you cheated on me with will ever compare to even half of who I am. I hope you realized what you did, what you gave up. But I also hope that by now you know that I have forgiven you.
I still wish you the best and I will always pray that you find someone and are able to love them the way you once loved me.
The best friend who I simply wasn't ready for
You made me laugh often. You showed me what I deserve. You were my best friend.
Through you, I learned that a relationship is work - it's effort, yet, you were always so willing to give it. Since we were able to build a foundation based on pure friendship, it just made our relationship that much better.
However, for the mistakes I made, I'm sorry. I didn't deserve you.
I wish I could've reciprocated the same feelings you showed me, but I know that someday you're going to find a girl that will. They're going to accept you and your love whole-heartedly. You will be happier with someone else than you were with me, I promise.
I know you're going to end up in the right place with the right heart.
The guy who will take my heart a thousand miles around the globe
You taught me how to validate myself as a person. You showed me that there is beauty in vulnerability.
Through you, I made some of the best memories. Some of the memories that I'll keep close to my heart for the rest of my life. In the year I've known you, I learned more about myself and the world around me than I have in my 19 years of living.
"We are just like the waves that flow back and forth. Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning and you're there to save me and I wanna thank you with all of my heart".
I know you will love the right girl in ways she won't be able to fathom. I know you're going to make someone out there live a blissful life. I know that when the right girl comes around, you will be ready for her.
I want to wish you nothing but happiness on your brand new start. Always remember, I'm here for you.
The "what if" I'll never hear from again
You overlooked me. You didn't want me. You made me wonder, but you also made me have hope.
You showed me what it's like to want someone but not be able to do anything about it but pray, but trust God.
I have yet to know if you were really the perfect guy for me or if I made myself believe you were the perfect guy for me.
Love wasn't a priority for you, but I get it. We're all in different wavelengths at this time in our lives that I have no reason to be upset. However, that doesn't change the fact that I wish I could've gotten a chance with you.
There are many lessons I could've taught you, but I know that another one will come around and teach you themselves. I know that whatever girl ends up with you is going to be so, so lucky.
You made it hard for me, but I know you'll make it easy for someone else.
The ambiguous new adventure that's waiting
You're new, you're exciting, you're a whole new adventure ahead of me. I don't know what will become of us, I don't even know if something will become of us, but I'm so excited to see.
You are kind, you are gentle. You are patient and you are pure.
My friends see the smile I have on my face when I'm around you. They say I'm happier than I've ever been before.
I believe them.
Thank you for accepting not only myself, but those I love too. Wherever we may end up, I hope you know that however long or short our time is together, you are a blessing. You are my blessing.