To My Boyfriend Who Has Anxiety,
I know you get scared sometimes, and I know sometimes your thoughts get too much for your own head, but you don’t have to worry because I am not going to leave you. I want to be the person you can talk to and I will try my best to ease your anxieties. I know I won’t be able to get rid of them, but I can be an ear to listen to you and someone who will look at you with all of the stars in her eyes.
I will reassure you every day that I love you. There is no amount of messaging that is too much for me. You will never be a burden to me. I am always just a phone call away when you are having a bad day. I will never be ashamed to show you off to people because I am proud of you and how hard you are trying. Anxiety is not an easy thing to live with, but I will do my best to make it easier for you. I will be patient with you.
I don’t want you to ever have to question how I feel about you. My whole heart is devoted to you. You show me every day how easy it is to be with you, and that is something unlike anything I have experienced. You have been so kind to me since I met you. You have shown me that I deserve the world, and you are the one who will give it to me.
Panic attacks are not an easy thing to experience, and it’s hard for me to understand exactly what you feel because I have never experienced one. However, that will not stop me from sympathizing and trying my best to understand what it feels like so I can try to ease your pain in the future. I know you are trying too and this is not something that you can ever get rid of overnight. If you ever need anything at all, I will be right here. Do not hesitate to ask because it is honestly no problem at all. I will do everything I can to help you and support you.
You are my whole world now, and I will do anything to make things better. I love you and will be here for you. I will be the gravity to help hold you to this earth and remind you of what is real. I will be the sun to shine for you through your darkest days and nights. I will be your princess, and I will treat you like the prince you are. I will give you all the love and attention that you need and deserve, because you are a treasure to me. I cannot wait to grow with you on this adventure of ours.
Maybe someday you won’t have to worry anymore. Maybe someday you will have a better view of yourself. Someday you will not need constant reassurance (even though I want to give it to you anyways). Life will not be perfect, but with you and I together, we can accomplish anything. Someday, the panic attacks will come less often, or maybe even not at all. Someday it will get easier to overcome your anxiety. It will get easier to breathe. Someday you will heal. And when that day comes, I will be right by your side.
Love,
Your girlfriend, your gravity, your sun.