All I ever felt when I woke up was the headache coming because I already knew how the day was going to go. So much was happening in my life at that moment, I never once thought I could bring myself to love myself and be happy again. Here you come....brown hair, blue eyes. Every time I saw you, I never could bring myself to go and talk to you. When we finally did, we knew. We needed to be together. Here we are...just about 9 months later and I am beginning my new life here at USM and you are home on the coast. I have never been happier and more in love than I am now. I never imagined my life would be like this back then. You have made me smile and laugh more times than I can count. When things seemed to get harder, you made me softer. I learned to love myself because of you. You built me up and gave me confidence. I know I can do anything as long as I set my mind to it now. You are my rock and I know I can lean on you during anything.
When my anxiety acts up, I can call you and you start talking about other little things so I keep my mind off of what is making my anxiety act up. You tell me to take a deep breath and to get my sh*t together. You know exactly the right things to say to help me calm down and think rationally. You always remind me of the positive things I have going for me so I can stop dwelling on the negative. You always know how to bring the light back to me when I step back into the dark part of life. You are a blessing.
Here I am typing this article and I am here. I am alive. I have made it through. I am at USM chasing my dreams and you are still supporting me, still there, and still loving me. Here it is, my life is falling apart now and you are reminding me why I am here. I am here to succeed and to be the strong woman my mother raised me to be. You make me happy. Every morning when I see your good morning text, I am happy and ready to take on the day. Why? Because of you. You have brought happiness into my life when I thought it was impossible. You make me the happiest girl in the world and I do not know where I would be without you.
So this is my thank you and my appreciation for you. You have brought the happiness back into my life. I wake up smiling all the time because of you and for that, I am forever grateful. Thank you for showing me what life is truly about and how short life can be. I will never take another day or moment for granted. There is more to life than the negatives. We lift each other up every day through the good and the bad. I love you, Colton. I truly do.