I know I don’t say it nearly enough, but I love you and I am extremely thankful for you. Looking back at the days we spent cleaning the house and walking around hanging out with the apartment friends, I would never have thought you and I would have ended up here.
You’re engaged and have five beautiful kitten kids, I’ll be graduating high school in 6 months. I never thought I’d make it and I am positive, I wouldn’t have made it if I didn’t have you. You have always been a role model to me, you’ve always been my hero. I remember growing up wanting to make you proud, wanting to impress you.
So many times I felt like I failed you but every time you’ve told me otherwise. I know we’ve had our ups and downs, I know we’ve had our fair share of fights but no matter what, we manage to get through them and come back stronger than ever.
Over the last three years of our lives, we’ve been through a lot. We walked into new problems we never thought we’d run into. For a while, I felt like you were the only one who understood me.
Now, I am working, I’m writing, I’m growing, and I know I don’t always respond but I hope you know you’re always on my mind. I light up when I talk about you and go on and on about how proud I am to be your sister, to be your friend.
When times get hard I know you’ll be there, waiting for me, ready to hear about what’s wrong. I remember thinking of you as my guardian angel growing up.
Many times, you’ve taken the fall for me, many times you’ve protected me. You raised me. When I was scared, you comforted me. When I was lost, you guided me. When I was sad, you held me. Together, we’ve walked through hell and back and I wouldn’t have been able to do it with anyone else.
Our bond is wild.
I remember in sixth grade, I wrote an "I am" poem. One of the lines was “I am more afraid of my sisters’ death than mine.” It’s true, I don’t ever want to live in a world without you in it. I remember telling the social workers I just wanted to see you, I remember stalling to get a goodnight text back from you because we spent every night together.
Me without you just doesn’t make sense.
As this new year rolls around, I can’t help but wonder what amazing things it holds when it comes to you. I can’t wait to go to Alaska, to spend the night, to cook random foods, to go on walks, to play with the cats, and to do all the wedding shenanigans we have yet to complete.
“There is no better friend than a sister. And there is no better sister than you.” — Unknown