I am my own worst critic and enemy when it comes to my body. I constantly compare myself to to others and shame my body because I am disgusted with myself that I am not a size 0. I lost 65 pounds which is amazing but I am still not satisfied. When you lose weight, you still have to deal with the extra weight in certain areas like legs and belly. It sucks because you think losing weight would make you happier, but it stresses you out to just lose more to have the perfect body, which does not exist.
Women compare themselves to other women so much that it causes serious mental health issues and eating disorders. Why do we hate our bodies so much? Well, society tells us skinny is in. The clothes many stores make that we like and want to feel sexy in don't make it for women with a few extra pounds. Boys seem to be harsh when it comes to evaluating a woman's body.
I know the reason why I am so harsh about my weight is that I feel inferior compared to other girls when I speak to guys. I was with my friend at a restaurant who is thin and beautiful and can rock any outfit. When I was standing next to her I just felt ugly and jealous to the point where I went home and cried.
The fact that I have some extra fat in the belly area makes me angry because I feel gross when wearing jeans. My body dysmorphia is for real and I know I am not the only woman in a society facing the issue of body shaming. I speak to so many of women of different shapes and sizes and honestly I find beauty in every woman I have spoken to. Each woman I speak to has such a great and unique sense of style they rock and some have confidence that I admire. Other women though have no confidence like me and feel ashamed to even go out in public, which is how I feel.
I tried to look at many weight loss programs and FAD diets but they seem sketchy to me. I am not about drinking shakes every day and cleansing because well, I like normal food. I am not against FAD diets at all, they are just not for me.
I was out last night with a friend and saw so many beautiful women that I started comparing myself to. My friend texted me to cut it out because she said I am beautiful inside and out. Why can't I believe her? Why can't all women see themselves for the beauty that they are and be happy?
I wish I had the wisdom and strength to be happy and comfortable with myself. I lead a pretty healthy lifestyle eating all the rights foods with some pizza once in a while. I exercise five times a week and try to practice self-care as best as I can. What really helps me with my body confidence though is practicing self-love and having a support network of women who tell me I am beautiful the way I am, and they actually mean it.
To the women struggling with their bodies, you are not alone, trust me. We can pick out every flaw but at the end of the day the bodies are ours and we need to take care of them. You can lose all the weight in the world which is awesome but if you are not happy with the person you are, the weight loss seems to go to waste. Practice being kind to yourself and supporting other women; we all need it.
You are beautiful inside and out.