Halloween is in a few days and what would be more fun than to write about my biggest fear? Something most people are asked several times throughout their life is what is your biggest fear? Or what are you afraid of? Everyone has a fear and some are bigger than others. Some people might be afraid of heights and others might be afraid of germs or animals. It's weird to imagine how something that we are around all the time could potentially be someone's biggest fear.

My biggest fear in this world, and in the next, is DEATH! I am not afraid of death. I am more afraid of not knowing what comes next and how I will die. There are so many damn questions about it and it is something I think about almost everyday. When I die, will the after life be how I believe it is? Will I meet God and will I be with all of my friends and family who have already passed? Or will I be put 6 feet under while my world becomes just black and there is nothing anymore?

I believe in God. I believe in the after life, but I do not truly know if it is there. No one has ever come to me in my dreams to tell me that there is. I've never had a near death experience where I have seen the light, because then maybe I would not be as afraid. I also think a lot of my problem is my faith. I am Catholic, so you would think that my mind would think yes, there is an afterlife and it's not just a black wall once you die.

How I die is also something I totally freak out about. No one wants to die horrifically, unless maybe they are taking their own life and that person does it in a messy way. I am afraid to die by burning alive or in a car accident. It just freaks me out. I do not want some EMT pulling me out of a car while my body is lifeless. I think another reason is that I want to die old, but I still want to look like me when I die. Burning or being in an accident would make it hard for my body to look the same or not have terrible looking injuries.

I do not want to endure any pain. I would rather die sleeping in my bed peacefully over being murdered or some crazy shit like that. I know people are afraid of clowns and animals and heights, but to me they all seem minor compared to death. We are all surrounded by death everyday. Every time you get into a vehicle there is the chance that you die. Walking down the street, someone might run you over. A massive heart attack, a house fire, or not being able to swim and drowning.

What is your biggest fear?