To the person who once was the only one that understood me in times when no one else did, this one is for you.

I am not even sure what to call ourselves anymore. The memories we created and the infinite amount of time we have spent together have all resulted in just that, pure mental constructs that only exist in my mind and hopefully, sometimes in yours too.

I thought we would beat the odds, prove everyone who thought our friendship would not last, wrong. We would just joke and laugh about how they were jealous because they did not have a friendship like ours, a chosen sibling whose depth of a relationship is unfathomable. We called ourselves the lucky ones and felt bad for the new people that we met in different stages of our lives because that best friend position was already filled and we knew no competition would ever measure up whatsoever.

The automatic go-to person to eat tubs of ice cream with over breakups, the one who you call before every test to just wish them good luck, the friend who knows you better than you know yourself— I thought that would be us until we grow old and wrinkly and have full heads of white silk. I genuinely thought that our relationship was stronger than time and space. But little did I know, or little did I want to believe, that that very invincible friendship would be the cause of my heart aching more than any break up or broken relationship.

You see, romantic relationships come and go. They are a part of life that we reminisce upon as something that has passed, whether good or bad. But through and over every single one of them, you were there, ever so constant, ready for me to word vomit for the endless nights that followed. And letting go of this friendship hurts more than any other kind of pain I have dealt with.

From inseparable sisters to strangers who barely acknowledge one another with a brief smile and nod, I guess this is it. I know that one day we will both achieve our greatest dreams and accomplish everything that we have planned for the future. But it just will not be done together. And it is what it is. Tears have been wiped away, anger has vanished, and bitterness has subsided.

To the one person in the world who I thought would never leave, thank you for having been in my life.