Sadness doesn't mean suicide

Being Unhappy Doesn't Necessitate Suicide

Sure, I'm upset, but that doesn't mean i'm thinking about killing myself.


I've been upset lately. We all have our moments of uncertainty. Days of being insanely happy, days of being remarkably sad. In my opinion, feelings have a wider range than the color spectrum.

My summer hasn't been great. I haven't gone on luxurious vacations, gone to many events, and I haven't seen many friends. When I came home for the summer, I came home to a new house, a new city, and a hefty distance from all my friends. Before I'm attacked for my words, I definitely don't believe that happiness is measured by wealth, the ability to do everything you want, or the number of friendships you have. However, I'm a hardcore extrovert who thrives around people and keeping myself busy. And to put it simply, my summer has been absolutely boring. I have no friends in my new city, I have my small summer job, and that's about it. I barely leave my house and I feel so out of my skin from hiding from the world all summer.

I've tried to make friends here. But let's face it, how awkward is it going to things alone? Knowing absolutely no one leaves every "door of opportunity" slammed shut. Our generation makes it almost impossible to make friends. Glued to our phones, we've become anti-social by being media-based social.

Lately, I've been feeling like I don't have a voice. Feeling like my voice doesn't matter. As an oxymoron as it is, feeling like my feelings don't matter. Since I don't have many friends, I've relied on my family. What a disappointment. I knew college was going to change my relationship with my family, but I didn't anticipate how much. My parents are divorced, and as much as I love them equally, this summer it was easier to stay with my dad with my classes and job. All my friends live in my mom's city an hour away, and I didn't account for how difficult managing my social life with my work life would be.

This summer all I've been is sad. I haven't had the constant smiles and adventures, I've been bored out of my mind. Maybe that's my fault. My fault for not finding a hobby, not being in the right places to make friends, or finding something to do with my newfound time. Somedays I wonder what the point of everything is if all I'm going to be is bored. I've had fights, I've had my tears, I've had struggles with the friends that I never get to see. It's been a tough year, and plenty of things have taken a toll on my soul.

I may be upset, and some days feel like things aren't worth it. That doesn't mean I want to end my life. That doesn't mean I want to kill myself. As sad as I am now, I know that there have been so many days that rays of sunshine pour out of me, days that I wouldn't give up for the world, days that I'm so grateful for all the things I have in this life. I may be upset now, but don't shove my feelings in a category that carry so much weight in this world.

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If You've Ever Been Called Overly-Emotional Or Too Sensitive, This Is For You

Despite what they have told you, it's a gift.

Emotional: a word used often nowadays to insult someone for their sensitivity towards a multitude of things.

If you cry happy tears, you're emotional. If you express (even if it's in a healthy way) that something is bothering you, you're sensitive. If your hormones are in a funk and you just happen to be sad one day, you're emotional AND sensitive.

Let me tell you something that goes against everything people have probably ever told you. Being emotional and being sensitive are very, very good things. It's a gift. Your ability to empathize, sympathize, and sensitize yourself to your own situation and to others' situations is a true gift that many people don't possess, therefore many people do not understand.

Never let someone's negativity toward this gift of yours get you down. We are all guilty of bashing something that is unfamiliar to us: something that is different. But take pride in knowing God granted this special gift to you because He believes you will use it to make a difference someday, somehow.

This gift of yours was meant to be utilized. It would not be a part of you if you were not meant to use it. Because of this gift, you will change someone's life someday. You might be the only person that takes a little extra time to listen to someone's struggle when the rest of the world turns their backs.

In a world where a six-figure income is a significant determinant in the career someone pursues, you might be one of the few who decides to donate your time for no income at all. You might be the first friend someone thinks to call when they get good news, simply because they know you will be happy for them. You might be an incredible mother who takes too much time to nurture and raise beautiful children who will one day change the world.

To feel everything with every single part of your being is a truly wonderful thing. You love harder. You smile bigger. You feel more. What a beautiful thing! Could you imagine being the opposite of these things? Insensitive and emotionless?? Both are unhealthy, both aren't nearly as satisfying, and neither will get you anywhere worth going in life.

Imagine how much richer your life is because you love other's so hard. It might mean more heartache, but the reward is always worth the risk. Imagine how much richer your life is because you are overly appreciative of the beauty a simple sunset brings. Imagine how much richer your life is because you can be moved to tears by the lessons of someone else's story.

Embrace every part of who you are and be just that 100%. There will be people who criticize you for the size of your heart. Feel sorry for them. There are people who are dishonest. There are people who are manipulative. There are people who are downright malicious. And the one thing people say to put you down is "you feel too much." Hmm...

Sounds like more of a compliment to me. Just sayin'.

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Life Is So Much More Than Ourselves

The lives we live are really so much bigger than just ourselves.


I hope people hear this loud and clear when I say that this generation of people and quite frankly our society as a whole has become one of the most selfish to date. I really hope people reading this don't take it as me calling people out, "throwing shade" or bashing humanity, I'm just trying to put out a call to action but in a more blunt way.

This generation subconsciously lives by the "me, my, mine" lifestyle. Everything is all about us, and what we want and immediate satisfaction or gratification from the things that we do in life. We always want someone to notice what we are doing, that we did it and we want to be acknowledged for it. Our wants and desires power so much of what we do and how we react to what others do and so on and so forth. Also, kind of piggybacking on that, we tend to believe or live by the idea that, "yeah it happens, but it's never gonna happen to me" which can be a major issue when it comes to decision making. This is because we don't think about how it affects anyone but ourselves, usually in the immediate sense rather than the long term.

With that being said it can become an issue when we choose to ignore the other things going on around us like, "oh, someone else will get it." and then things like the trash epidemic and the state at which our planet and country is in now. We have become so self-absorbed that it's to hell with everything else. The places that we call home and the world that we know is falling apart and we are all just gonna sit by and watch like nothing is happening.

I am tired of the mentality that we as a society live in, and how we try to desperately to look great on social media but do nothing about it in real life. It is time that things change and we are the ones changing it.

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