Opportunities in life are bursting at the seams.
My eyes are almost as big as my dreams.
So many things I haven't done, far too many places I haven't been.
But ahead I have a life of adventure and adversity unforeseen.
I know how to drive, wash dishes, and keep the house clean,
I think I'm already an adult, but I don't really know what it means.
Strappy tanks from the mall and brand name skinny jeans.
Mascara and lipgloss form a part of my daily routine.
Going to sleep at 8 p.m. or 3 a.m., no in between.
And all of my friends have all been replaced with caffeine.
All day I type words onto a backlit screen.
I'm tired of being a relentless machine.
Tired of running on gasoline.
Working out just to look like a figurine.
On the glossy pages of a magazine.
Who doesn't even look like that herself.
But my parents seem to think otherwise
When about a boyfriend, I'm five
When getting groceries, I'm twenty three
When managing money, I'm sixty
When it's bedtime, I'm eight
And everyone around me
Is like everyone else
All trying to be "cool" and "funny" and "lit"
But I just can't seem to get with it
I remain an anomaly
I'm seventeen and I'm breaking the flow.
I'm tired of ignorant people who don't bother to know
About the problems that plague our world today
I'm seventeen and I have something to say.
I know I am the embodiment of your expectations
Still, I am but a child, and I succumb to my temptations
Forgive me for failing you every once in a while
I try, really, I do.
I believe I am the youth,
That my voice has a purpose
Can I really use it to make change?
The thought makes me nervous
Still, I'll push on
Through the calculus problems
Through the fading friendships
Through the crippling self-doubt
Through the crumbling walls I glued apart at the edges
Through the sleep deprivation
Because at seventeen, I can't do without
And his sugary texts at midnight.
And scrolling endlessly through Instagram memes.
And literal liquid gold, also known as queso from Moe's.
And my best friend, eight thousand miles away, sending me a message every night.
I can't do without the promise of a new tomorrow.
A tomorrow I build with my own two hands and those of my generation.
A tomorrow where I find myself, and also the cure for cancer.
A tomorrow where I, like my poetry, can be anything I want it to be.
Because I'm seventeen.
And this is just the beginning.
I have my whole life in front of me.
It's going to be legendary.