For 18 years of my life, I had been the baby in the family. I never saw my life as being any other way, but how glad I am now that it is. I remember when My parents were first trying to have a kid. I was super excited but honestly overly frightened.

I was not really worried like everyone thought I would be for some weird reason, about having to give up my youngest child privileges or having all of the attention taken away from me. I never really felt like I was given those things in my childhood and felt more like my siblings and I were treated pretty equally, however my older sisters would probably think differently.

Also, by the time my parents started trying I was soon approaching getting out of high school so those things did not really occur to me.

My biggest fear was that I would not be the perfect older sister or role model for the newest addition to the family. Being an older sister comes with the responsibility of being someone a younger sibling can look up to and admire. My two older sisters were great examples to me and always look after me the best they could.

Since I have always been the youngest that everyone looked after I was afraid I would not be able to take up the task. I was also scared that I would have no part of his life since I live away from home for college.

The day my baby brother came into the world I was in my dorm in college and was not able to come back home to see him in the hospital. I was pretty upset and already felt like I would have an insignificant role in my brother James' life. While I looked through his adorable newborn photos I prayed to God about his life and hopefully how I could have a good impact on it.

Now, while I am back home for the summer I have been able to spend time with him. His happiness and goofiness never cease to brighten my day. As he gets older I have been able how much closer I get to him every day. I know that being a great older sister will not be the easiest thing especially since I will most of the time be far away but I will try my hardest to be a great sister because I can already tell he definitely deserves it.