November 8th, 2016. A day that surely will go down in United States history. It will be the Election Day that our kids and grandkids come to us, asking where we were when we realized that Donald Trump was now our nation's leader. Like when we had to ask our grandparents where they were when Kennedy was assassinated. They will ask us where we were, and how we felt.

I, along with many of you, will answer "I was on my college campus". I was in my dorm room, laying in bed, wondering what would await me when i woke up in the morning; though, the anxiety of our nation's fate kept me from sleeping. And as I looked at the results at 1:25 AM on November 9th, my heart sunk. Donald Trump had actually won. And what I feel? I am disgusted. Disgusted and ashamed.

I want to cry. No, scratch that, I want to vomit, fall out of my bed, vomit again, and then cry at the results of the 2016 election. While I cannot say that I supported either Hillary or Donald, as I had my issues with both, my heart is.....well, quite honestly, afraid.

Afraid because Trump has time and time again told an entire religion to get out of our country based on what he has learned about the religion in our media and popular culture. He doesn't understand what the Islamic faith is really about. He hasn't taken a moment to stop and look at what they really believe; to study it academically even for five minutes. Afraid because Trump has been as racist as the times of slavery toward people who have come from Mexico to try and have a better life. Allowing a candidate for any office to have even half of the "success" that Trump has based on those two platforms alone makes me wonder what America really stands for.

I cannot say that his comments toward women do not affect me. As not only a woman, but as someone who has experienced the sexual harassment that comes with being a woman in todays world, I am utterly disgusted. Are women simply viewed as objects to you, America? Are we nothing more than something you own? For a country that preaches equality, we have just elected a leader who quite honestly I don't believe knows the meaning of the word.

I am ashamed to be an American today. Ashamed because we have allowed someone who cannot be further from what America was built off of, and that is freedom of religion and equality of all people. Who could forget that the settlers left England to get away from the Anglican Church? They were tired of being told what to believe and yet, here we are. Telling an entire faith community to get out of our country......No. I am ashamed because I do not want to tell them to leave. I want to embrace them, and give them someplace safe to live and to raise a family.

Ashamed because we are telling an entire race to go back to where they escaped from. To put their lives, their families, in danger because they "stole our jobs". No. America we have become lazy. There is a reason you don't see Americans in the positions you claim have been stolen from us. And that, quite honestly, is because we have become to lazy to do the work ourselves.

Ashamed because women fought so hard just under 100 years ago to be seen as equal, and we have taken a giant step back. Because our newly elected president would just rather "Grab them by the p***y", to quote him directly. Ashamed because women yet again have been categorized as objects, property, to our male "superiors".

So, America, there you have it. We have a leader that, well honestly, reflects the views that sadly are quite prominent in our popular culture. The views of Muslims only being violent, when I promise you not all of them are. The views that Mexicans are are illegals who have "hopped the boarder to steal our jobs", which I promise you they did not. And the view that women are objects. Which, I promise you, we are not.

America, today, November 9th, 2016, I mourn for our nation. I mourn for where we are not only as a nation, but as mankind. We need saving. We need saving from ourselves and from the views that we hold. These two days will go down in history, and for the first time in my life I cannot say that I am proud to be an American.