To myself-- past, present, and future,

This is long overdue. I am so sorry. For all of the things, I put you through, for doubting you, and for thinking you're not enough at times. If you're anything like me, you're your own biggest critic. You're the hardest on yourself, but you cut everyone else a break. You allow other people to apologize for their mistakes. However, you want to strive to be perfect... to make no mistakes. Furthermore, you're incredibly hard on yourself when you've made a mistake. I've thought long and hard about this. One day- I guess I had an epiphany- I realized that this really makes no sense.

Why do I give other people so many chances to make mistakes, but don't grant any to myself?

Why are the worst to ourselves? While it's obviously important to be tolerant and accepting of others... why are we not as accepting of ourselves?

After some serious soul-searching, I have realized that I do this incredibly often; I have also realized just how wrong this is. I've realized just how mean I can be to myself, and that while trying to be a good friend to others-- I forget to be kind to myself.

So, to myself-- in the past, present, and future (because this is all easier said than done). I truly apologize. I'm sorry for the stress I have personally put on you. I apologize for making you feel inadequate (because honestly, we're the ones that do this to ourselves), and for tearing you down when you've made a mistake. I'm sorry for all of the times I've thought "I can't," and for sometimes giving up before even trying. I hope in the future I can remember this realization and know that it's okay to give yourself a break sometimes. When allowing others to have imperfections, I'll realize that you're allowed to be just as flawed.

I'm sorry for not recognizing your capabilities and your strengths. I promise I'll change- for the better.

Best,

Me as I am today