An Open Letter To The People I've Pushed Away

An Open Letter To The People I've Pushed Away

I'm sorry I was such an awful friend that you felt the need to leave.


To the people I've pushed away,

To start off this letter, I'm going to state a fact: I will no longer be apologizing for who I am and what I go through. You have made me feel awful about myself for too long.

After being diagnosed with an anxiety and depression disorder, my mental and emotional health went downhill. What most people don't know is that my self-image went on a downfall when I was diagnosed with bells palsy in 2013. Bells Palsy is defined as the paralysis of the facial nerve, causing muscular weakness in one side of the face. For me, this was awful. I was pretty much told that it could last anywhere from two weeks, to permanently; or anywhere in between. Unfortunately, mine is permanent.

Being diagnosed with all of this plays a major part in how I've pushed so many people away. I began this letter by explaining all of this to you to show you what I've gone through. Granted, it could always be worse, but that doesn't mean you have to leave. Yes, I talk horribly of myself, and yes, I believe you when you say I'm worthless. That's just how I am. Because of this, I believe that I will never find my worth and need a lot of help trying, so when you walk away, I don't want to keep trying.

So when I begin to push you away, please don't go, because I need you. I need your help. Again, this is not me apologizing for who I am. One day I will let you in, but until then just keep fighting for me because it will make all the difference in my life.

Thank you for trying to help me.

Sincerely, Kelsie

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Troy University Needs to Realize That There Are More Students Than Greek Life And SGA

"In unity, there is strength." - Riverdale


At Troy University, there are three groups present on campus: those that are Greek, those that are a part of the Student Government Association, and those that are don't affiliate with either.

During my search for a college to attend, one of my stipulations was that I didn't want Greek life to be the only dominant force on campus (along with things such as cost, location, majors offered etcetera). Troy University boasts a Greek population of only 20% and this number intrigued me because, at many schools, it seems to be a higher percentage of students. However, after attending Troy University for a little over a semester now, I doubt this number because every time I turn around, another student is telling me about what sorority they are a member of, or about what fraternity they are a member of on campus.

And, admittedly, prior to the first SGA election, I was pretty clueless as to what SGA was because SGA was not a big deal at my high school. To be more truthful, I didn't understand the full extent of SGA until now while the SGA presidential race is happening.

Greek life isn't bad and those that are a part of Greek life aren't bad. The SGA isn't bad and those that are a member of the SGA aren't bad. It just feels like Greek life and SGA goes hand-in-hand for those that are independent and makes being involved on campus that much harder.

Those who ran for SGA will promote the fact they are a part of a sorority or fraternity, and thus, represent the student body; however, if only 20% of Troy's campus is Greek, how is this true? Something like this is what I mean. There's a lack of awareness that there is more to this campus than SGA and Greek life.

There just needs to be more attention brought to the lack of awareness of those who aren't Greek nor SGA.

For example, during Homecoming, independent organizations participated with the frats and sororities in events such as chalk the quad and making banners. Not one independent organization was promoted for chalk the quad, and I know, as a member of an independent organization, we had to ask to be recognized for winning a place for our banner. I am grateful that we were at least recognized but it shouldn't feel like fighting a war to be recognized alongside Greek organizations for completing the same activities.

This is an open plea to the new SGA President -- bring students together, all students because that is what will make Troy University a stronger college.

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Moving Away From Your Hometown Is A Feeling Like No Other

This is all very new.


I've lived in the same town my entire life. I graduated from a high school I went to since second grade. I've grown up with the same friends that I have now, even though I've lost some along the way.

All of that is about to change. I'm moving within the next month over two hours away from where I grew up and away from my family. For some this may be scary, but I can not tell you how excited I am. I see this as a blessing and a beautiful opportunity to get to know myself outside of the walls I grew up in.

I can not say that I'm not terrified. Understandably, moving to a new place into an apartment can be very scary for someone who has never experienced something like this before. I'm stressing about things that I have never had to worry about before.

I'm worrying about furniture, money, and what rug would match the decor better. Seems a bit silly, but this is all new to me. I need everyone to have a little patience with me or with anyone going through a major life change like this.

Putting all the stress aside I know this is a big change that could benefit me greatly. I can not wait to make memories in a new place outside of the walls I've built around my hometown.

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