I'm not easy to love.

I'm also not easy to be there for.

I'm not easy to impress or easy to please and I won't praise you for doing the things you are supposed to do.

Loving someone is a choice that you continuously have to make. It's a constant decision of dedication and if you are not capable of that then I ask you to not become involved.

Growing up I've seen what love is supposed to be like. I was so blessed to grow up having both parents and that's something I'll never take for granted. Part of that though, is I've been spoiled in love, showered with happiness, and given an example of how things are ultimately supposed to be.

I will not settle for less than I have received and I certainly will not settle for less than I deserve.

I am moody. Irresponsible.I like control. I like having plans. I need to have things figured out and in order. I almost never brush my hair. I suck at baking. I can make bad decisions, stay up late on school nights, run red lights, and sometimes curse at the wind for blowing. But I know these things about myself. I know and I understand that I am not perfect, therefore I do not expect that of anyone else.

Love, as beautiful as it is, is also not perfect. But there's a difference between something having flaws and not meeting basic standards.

To add to that; I will never ask you to do something that I wouldn't do for you.

Let me repeat that:

I will never ask you to do something that I wouldn't do for you.

Understanding and accepting me for who I am is something I shouldn't have to ask for. As well as loving and taking care of my family as your own.

I will do my part. I will love you. I will choose you, I will pick you, and I will dedicate all I have to not only you but to your family, but I ask that you do the same.

Love and emotions and the risk of heartbreak is not something to be played with. Trusting a person is a struggle in itself. But meeting someone who you are to open your life to, is something else. And it shouldn't be a game of Russian roulette.

As serious as this whole thing has been though, I do want to say that I am more than excited to meet you. I pray for you and think about you every day and I hope that no matter the circumstance you remember that your time is coming. Our time is coming. And here's to that and to us.