You know, I was always hesitant to trust you.
I wasn't sure if you would make the cut of the person I could confide in.
There was just something about you that I didn't like.
However, I was told to just give you a chance,
So I did.
I eased myself into it, though.
Still not entirely sure if I could put my faith in you and support you.
Everyone told me how nice you were, and how you couldn't hurt a fly.
I was told to just let you in.
So I did.
I would find out eventually that it would be a mistake.
I would find out you would never the best intentions at heart.
In a split decision, you would ruin me.
You would tell me to stay away.
So I did.
I was told no one condoned your behavior,
And that it shouldn't have even happened.
You hurt me in a way I didn't think was possible.
And I was told to forgive you.
So I tried.
Every time I saw you, it hurt.
It made me angry that you could be so blissful,
But yet, I was in Hell.
I was told to let go of the anger.
So I tried.
I had too much class to try to ruin you.
I didn't tell anyone what you did.
I wanted to but didn't.
But the people who knew told me to let it go.
So I tried.
You were told to stay away.
You were told to back off.
I told you I was done with you.
You were to leave me alone.
But you didn't.
You kept trying.
You wanted me to see things the way you did.
But I couldn't.
You should have left me alone.
But you didn't.
And even after you knew you were wrong,
You still held your ground.
Refusing to own up to what you did.
You should have just said sorry.
But you didn't.
I would always ask myself, "why?"
Why did you do it?
Why did you try to justify what you did?
Why couldn't you just own up to your mistake?
But you don't care.
Do you have any idea what you did?
Do you know how betrayed I felt?
Do you know how much tears soaked my pillow at night?
Do you how much you broke me?
But you don't care.
You shouldn't have done it.
You shouldn't have hurt me.
You shouldn't have said those things.
But you still did.
But you don't care.
It has taken me years to get over it.
It has taken me years to honestly say I forgive you.
It has taken me years to let go of that anger.
It has taken me years to no longer hate you.
And yet, here we are.