To the Person I am no longer jealous of,
I envied everything about you, from your popularity, grades, athleticism, friends, opportunities, and yes, even the amount of love you received from everyone. You were treated like a king, and you had the entire world in the palm of your hands. I knew I would never measure up to you. I knew I would never be as successful as you.
Sometimes, I would imagine what it was like to be you. What would it feel like to be able to walk around with my head held high, to be able to be good and successful at everything? Did you ever realize how much your presence in my life meant to me? If you did, maybe things wouldn’t have changed, if you did, maybe you would still be around.
But the title of this letter is to the person I am no longer jealous of and here is why:
I used to think that if I could just embody one single aspect of your life that I would be happy. If I could be half as successful as you, my life would be okay. But what I realized is that you are not who you put on for everyone else. I knew you better than I knew myself. I realized how selfish and close minded you were. You expected others to treat you like a superior, and I realized that is not the person I wanted to become. I am the complete opposite of you. I do not put others down, I do not make others feel worthless, and most importantly, I do not push the ones who truly care for me away.
If you were to see me now, I bet you would not even recognize me. You would look at me expecting to see my huge eyes gazing up to you in awe, but instead you would see me looking at you with hurt and pain. I am no longer aspiring to be like you. I am no longer the person you thought I was, I no longer feel like I am in your shadow, but most importantly, I am no longer jealous of you.
Sincerely,
A girl you used to know.