Aunt Jess,
You do not even realize the impact you had on my life and still do. When I found out you left to go to a better place I could not even put the words together that my dad was telling me. "Jess was killed in a car accident. " "Who? Aunt Jess?" "YES, can't you hear your mom crying downstairs?" My poor mom.
We all wonder everyday why you had to leave us when you did. I wait for you to come to me in my dreams and maybe give me a hint, but damn girl you are stubborn. We did run with ducks in one of my dreams though. I did not care what we were doing because I got to see you and talk to you in the dream.
Speaking of dreams, can you go talk to my mom? She misses you so much and she really wants to see and talk to you. Let her know how you are and let her know you are where you want to be. Maybe even tell her what happened the night you passed away.
I always wonder what you would be doing with your life right now. You were so smart. I always saw you making something very successful out of yourself. We all did though. I always wished I was as smart as you. You just had this passion. It was amazing.
Do you remember the time we went camping with Jordan and Max? That was such a blast. I really wish we would have gotten to do it again. I miss Jordan and Max too. When Jordan passed away and I found out I sat there and balled my eyes out, but I knew he was with you again and that was all that mattered.
I probably never told you this when you were here, but you are by far the biggest person I look up to and I always have and always will. You made such an impact on my life. You're a very special person. I'm thankful to be able to call you my Aunt.
I just wish I got to experience some things with you that I never got to: my 21st birthday, my first year of college, my college graduation, and my brothers wedding. It just sucks that I will never get to experience anymore things with you. I just hope you are watching down on all of us and laughing because we are all still sad that we don't get to see you all the time.
Just know I live my life everyday missing you and knowing you were taken way too soon, but like they say only the good die young.
"Mom, why do the best people die?"
"When you're in a garden, which flowers do you pick?"
"The most beautiful ones."