Dear God,
I am writing this to understand you better. I am confused with life. I don’t understand what you want from us.
Ever since I moved to Boston, you have given me a lot of happiness. I had achieved a lot of amazing things. I had also become a better person. I have made such amazing friends. I got into Music Therapy, the major I am interested in, and the Indian Ensemble.
But God, when I am having such a good time, why do people around me have to suffer? When I reached India, my dear mother had been diagnosed with stomach cancer. It was so heartbreaking for me. I never expected anything like that to happen in my family. Along with that, my dear father is also sick, and my brother is not doing well in college.
My mom hasn't done anything. She has gone through a lot. Why her? She doesn't deserve this. Whereas I have troubled, cursed and yelled at my family so many times. Why do other people have to suffer? Why not me?
My life revolves around people. I can't see other people suffer. I don't mind going through a difficult phase, but if something happens to my family members, I can't take this!
If you are doing this to punish me, then why not put me into a difficult phase? Why my mother? She didn't do anything to deserve this.
I am not understanding life now. When I go through a bad time, my family members do well. When I go through a good time, my family member's go through a difficult time. Does sadness happen more in life than happiness?
Please tell me what you want from me. Please tell me what life is about. Please show me a way that I can repent all my sins. Please don't make us suffer.
I have had lots of dreams and hopes. I wanted my mom to see me graduate, see me get married and have kids. Please fulfill that for me. Please help her become stronger and fight through this. Please don't break this happy family apart.
If you want me to be happy and satisfied, then please make my mother alright! Please make my family happy again.
After so much difficulty and emotional support, I have come up. I don't want to come down again. In fact, nowadays, no other happy moment of mine is making me happy.
Please help me God! I have full faith in you! Please don't let me down!
Sincerely,
A Concerned Daughter