Ask anyone who has spoken to us more than twice, and they won’t hesitate to tell you that we’re extroverted people. We don’t shy away from meeting new people and we don’t cringe at the thought of having a conversation with a stranger. But inside of that personality front is a part of us that doesn’t want to meet new friends, that gets anxious in a group of new people, that would rather stay home in the comfort of their own room rather than go out with people they're actually friends with; a part that would much rather stay home and watch movies all night rather than go out to a party or even to dinner; a part that wants to lay in bed and just look at the ceiling.

No, there’s nothing particularly dashing about our white ceilings, and we don’t stare at it to contemplate deep dark issues in our lives, but the point is that being alone doesn’t bother us, sometimes we even prefer it. Being alone and feeling alone are two very different concepts that are mistakenly put hand-in-hand too often. Just because a person is physically not surrounded by other people doesn’t mean the same thing as a person that may be surrounded by people but still feel solely isolated and detached from everyone around them.

This is a difficult position to be in, especially when trying to make plans. We may make plans four days in advance to go out and partake in scheduled events with a group of people, but once the day comes, it almost sounds better to cancel the plans and disappoint rather than get ready and leave the house. But then comes the never ending questions of “Are you OK?" “What’s wrong?” or “Did I do something?” No, no, you did not do anything, we’re just being weird and for some reason sitting here doing nothing sounded so much better than a fun day at the pool. Don’t ask us why, because we don’t have an explanation, sorry.

Making new friends gets to be a little overrated. Not that we’re opposed to meeting new people, it’s just that we’re at that point in our lives where we have a couple really good friends that understand this is the way we are. We just entertain the idea of “grabbing coffee” with that person we used to be good friends with but have hardly spoken to since we started college. Again, sorry. We’re not trying to phase you out of our lives, if you would like to come over and stare at the ceiling too, great, the door is open. But that’s not something we ask just anyone, especially someone that we haven’t spoken to on a regular basis for the better part of a year or two.

We’ll catch up with you the next time we’re in town, just make sure to schedule plans a few days in advance to guilt us into going. We’re not antisocial, we just don’t always need the company. If we're needed, we can be found staring at the ceiling.