I don't give myself and my accomplishments the validation they deserve. I don't think of myself as the brightest one out there and I definitely don't consider myself to be an exceptional example. I do so much, have so much on my plate, and still manage to get it done, but this contradicting voice in my head won't let me accept my doing's as "great".
Some may say that this is good because it always has me doing more and taking on more challenges, but it's exhausting feeling as if you're not doing enough. While the exterior world validates me, I cannot validate myself, and it has become one of the most frustrating things in my life.
The thing is, I only feel this way about academics and career-related things. Going to such a big university means there will always be someone smarter, someone more successful, and someone leaps ahead of me. As much as I want to be right there, right behind them I often times forget to remind myself that there are people right behind me as well. I am not last, but I will never be first either - and that's okay. My accomplishments deserve more self-validation than I give them.