One of the first articles I had the privilege to write, dealt with the serious matter of how people can be verbally abusive and still seem as if their only doing it because they care about you. It sometimes makes you feel as if you'd be crazy to try to leave because it is the best you will ever get.

The question is, however, why might they not? What is going on through their heads? While reading many experiences I was able to write this poem about what one might feel while dealing with this. This is a first-person poem but it is pure fiction. It focuses in on what one might feel while enduring this.

Questions Of Suffering

You call it loving me

You call it caring for me

You call it protecting me

But why is it when I lay my head next to yours

The only time I feel safe is when your eyes aren't on mine

You say you don't want to worry about losing me

But why is that if everything between us is fine?

You say you don't trust them

But why is it that I feel you don't trust me?

You always say you love me

And God knows I love you

But if it's supposed to be us against the world

Why does it feel like me against you?

Sometimes I just feel that I'm crazy

My friends don't see anything that's wrong

But then we also share the same friends

So maybe they just would rather not get involved?

I don't know what to do

And I don't want to make a mistake and lose you

But I could be making a mistake by staying

And I just wish it could be wrong, not true

It hurts me to say I want to leave

But you hurt me, even more, when I stay

But what hurts the most is wondering if you're right

Because then the only love I've had will have gone away