What I Learned From My First Car

A Thank You (& An Apology) To My First Car

The little grey Honda that could.


I could not even drive yet, but I was already in love with my soon-to-be baby. Before even having my driver's permit, I knew that my mom's car would be handed down to me so that she could get a new one, and that I would have something to drive. She was perfect! A grey 2011 Honda Accord with leather seats and a cute "Life is Good" bumper sticker. It was the perfect car for me - nice and small, low to the ground, had an aux cord (VERY important), heated seats, and has been loved for roughly 70,000 miles. On my 16th birthday, June 16, 2016, I went to the DMV with my mom to take my permit test… and passed! Six months later on December 7th, I was all ready to take my test… and passed! Unfortunately, it was bad weather outside, so my parents refused to let me actually drive the car until weeks later. But, it did not keep me from running through the snow, putting the key in the ignition, and listening to throwback songs on full volume at midnight when my best friend slept over that night.

Not too many weeks later, the day finally came where I could drive it. I drove to school for the first time, and being as nervous as I am, I was extremely cautious. From there, I drove to Starbucks, and before I knew it I was getting used to the Merritt Parkway - my first time driving on the highway. The car taught me how to drive - all of my firsts happened in that Accord.

Even after becoming comfortable driving, it became a place that would soon hold many personal experiences. Tears were shed - some of my biggest breakdowns happened in the car, like a safe space. It was my own little home away from home. Some of my funniest moments - singing songs at the top of our lungs, being followed by crazy people from school, picking up new and old friends. Picking people up has become the new way to hang out - my car was a communal spot. Driving around for no reason at all with people jammed in your back seat, making your own fun is what it is all about. My mom used the car to drive her and I to Maryland, Delaware, and Pennsylvania for a college road trip… this car brought me to UMD for the first time, a place I would soon call my home.

Getting Colony pizza and sitting in the parking lot of Sasco beach, bringing my best friend food at work every Saturday night, many, MANY trips through the McDonalds drive-thru, road trips to Westbrook, Christmas lights drives, challenging trips home in the pouring rain, learning my favorite new songs....but soon, it would all come to an end.

On May 22nd, I crashed my baby. Hopping in the car after school on a rainy, gloomy, day, my best friend and I were barely a half a mile off of school property when two cars ahead of me stopped short to make a turn, forcing my car to stop, but, as much as it tried, it could not. It was completely my fault - it is the result of becoming a little too comfortable with your driving skills. Even in bumper to bumper after school traffic, I should have given more wiggle room. It was barely the feeling of a quick bump, but when I got out, the metal twisted and pushed into different parts of the hood made me feel sick. I was confused, sad, embarrassed, and unsure of what to think. Despite the officer telling me it would be okay and that accidents happen, I found out a few days later it was totaled. So I drove to the garage to remove my things, take the plates, and say goodbye.

Do I sound dramatic? Yes. It's just a car, I know. A car is a material item… I should be leaving the situation happy that I am okay and that it was not a worse situation. But, with that said, I just cannot help but carry an immense feeling of regret… I failed the place I could always rely on to feel safe. What is important is to learn from those mistakes. It is just a car. It is just a car. The memories made inside it were ones I will forever cherish, but who's to say more can't be made in any other piece of metal with wheels? What I learned was valuable, I learned it the hard way and unfortunately, the most effective way. I am sorry, my little grey car, but I am so thankful for everything you gave me and taught me on our (many) journeys together.

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Lil Dicky's 'Earth' Is The Most Influential Song Of 2019, Change My Mind

And the music video may be even better.


Lil Dicky is a known musician know for his songs 'Pillow Talking' and 'Freaky Friday' featuring Chris Brown. The songs are fun silly and are very catchy. Last week, Lil Dicky released a new song titled 'Earth' featuring about 30 plus artists including Ariana Grande, Justin Bieber, Brendon Urie, Zac Brown Band, and many others. This song is just as enjoyable as his other songs; however, this one carries an extremely important message.

In this song, Dicky brings awareness to the condition of the Earth along with the idea of world unity. Through the inclusion of several animal species, he shows how the earth doesn't just belong to us as human, but to the animals as well. Oftentimes, the human race can be extremely selfish and forget that we do share the planet with other species who are just as important as us.

In one of his last verses, Dicky mentions the way we are harming the earth through pollution and fighting wars. This part of the song becomes more serious to emphasize the importance of this topic. In the music video, the colorful visuals turn dark and gray which can bring to attending the dying planet.

In his effort to save the earth, Dicky calls for unity among all countries and continents. Saying how all past issues are in the past and we all need to come together since we live on the same planet. With all the political issues happening on a global scale, the earth and its health are often pushed to the end of the priority list. By adding this part to the song, Dicky brings awareness of that topic back to the top.

'Earth' by Lil Dicky is the most important song of 2019. Through his creative artistry and inclusion of over 30 artists, people will notice the message of this song and hopefully begin to make changes that will impact the earth in positive ways. If you haven't watched the music video or listened to the song please do.

Earth is the only planet we have; thus, we need to show how much we love it by actually taking action to care for it.

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You Know You're From Trumbull, CT When...

The best memories are made in this boring, little, Connecticut town.


1. The majority of places you will consider to eat at are in Fairfield or Westport... Colony, Shake Shack, Country Cow, Playa Bowls, BarTaco

2. But if you find yourself too lazy to get on 95 for food, Panchero's is the go-to... never Chipotle. If it is past midnight, the choice always comes down to the McDonalds in Monroe, where you are almost guaranteed to see a group of people you know, or Merritt Canteen.

3. Once you got your license, your Friday night plans consisted of picking up friends, driving up and down Main Street, and, somehow, always finding yourself at the THS parking lot seeing who's car is there because there is nothing better to do.

4. In the Fall, you couldn't wait for Friday so that after school you and half of your grade could walk to Plasko's Farm for ice cream and apple cider donuts... and hope you could get them before the owners would yell at you to leave. (This one only applies to Hillcrest Middle School kids, AKA the inferior middle school in town).

5. You couldn't wait to be a senior so you could officially lead the BLACK HOLE at football games... if you were even willing to go in the cold.

6. You looked forward to the annual Senior Scav, the last week of summer before your senior year where a list of tasks is passed down by the recently graduated class... the official kickoff to senior year.

7. You pass by Country Club Rd. and get flashbacks from the worst Cross Country practices ever. Driving up Daniels Farm Rd. in the Fall and Spring, you are conditioned to yell "hi" out the window to your friends at practice.

8. You knew someone who worked at Gene's gas station... and found yourself spending more time there on the weekends than you would like to admit.

9. You are convinced Melon-heads are real after frequenting Velvet St. to see the abandoned insane asylum with your friends, IF you didn't want to drive all the way up to Fairfield Hills in Newtown.

10. You have had/have been to at least one middle school birthday party at the Trumbull Marriott.

11. You know that the 25mph speed limit on Whitney Ave. is way too slow... and can't help but hit a little air going down the huge hill at the top.

12. The guy at Towne likely knows your name.

13. You never find yourself turning right out of THS... that side of town is irrelevant for those who do not live there.

14. You know to avoid the Merrit Parkway from 4:00-7:00pm at all costs.

15. You know more than you would like to about people you aren't even friends with... in a town so small, things get around very quick.

16. Going shopping really means going to Target, or any store in the mall, for the millionth time that week.

17. The marching band was the best in the state and you would see them practicing, literally, every time you drove by THS.

19. Depending on the side of town you lived, you spent a lot of time at Five Pennies Park or Indian Ledge Park.

20. You would say you couldn't wait to leave, but when you got to college, you find yourself excited to come back to your hometown so you can reminisce on old traditions and make new memories.

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