Anxiety, I have always been afraid of you.

You were the beast in my head knocking on every wall to keep my heartbeat rising. The one that made me ask a ton of questions that would annoy the people around me. Make me freak out over the tiniest things. Make me think that everyone is looking and judging when they don't even notice me. Forced tears down my face, while making my chest feel as though there's an anvil dropped on it, making it difficult to breathe.

I can't sleep at night because of all the battles you put in my head. Bringing up old memories of past relationships making me doubt the ones I love now. You make me terrified to try things again or to even try new things. You made me want to be alone, stopping me from hanging out with other people. You made it easy to bring in the negative thoughts and destructive words.

You make it hard. But I want you to know I won't let you control me anymore. You have always been there, and no doubt you will always be there, but I won't let your presence hinder me or my goals. So with that, thank you.

Yeah Thank you for giving me something to conquer. To overcome. No doubt you have only made me stronger, not weaker.

Anxiety, your name has always been something that made me feel unworthy, not right, and crazy. I don't feel that as much anymore because I'm proud of who I have become. Whether you were there or not, I know that your name doesn't define me.

I'm not you Anxiety, I'm Breanna.

Your old friend,

Bre

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