This quarter, I did something I told myself I wouldn't do my senior year... I signed up for an 8 a.m. class. After a few years of not having class before 10 in the morning, I've been struggling. With this new change, there have been some persistent and reoccurring thoughts every time my alarm buzzes to wake me up before that early morning class.
1. "Oh my gosh, please, no."
Living off campus, my alarm goes off at 6 o'clock sharp in order for me to get to class on time. It's a feared noise and makes me feel physically sick to hear. But without it, I definitely wouldn't be waking up early enough to make it to class by 8. Every single morning, I try for some extra sleep but there's only so many time I can press snooze before I'm for sure going to be late.
2. "I should just skip."
It's always, always tempting to just skip right over my first class. I mean, 8 a.m. classes were basically invented to be skipped. Unfortunately, my professor has a policy that only permits two absent days. But still, I always consider it.
3. "Why did I do this to myself?!"
In college, there's so much flexibility as to when you take classes and what classes to take. Of course, there's always that one rare instance when the class you need is only offered at this ungodly hour. That's what happened to me this quarter. But still, why?!?!
4. "How did I do this in high school?"
It was actually worse in high school since classes started at 7:30 a.m. back then. I have no idea how I didn't pass out from exhaustion every day, but somehow I managed. I'll just have to comfort myself with that fact as I continue with these early mornings this quarter.
5. "Do I have time for coffee?"
The answer is probably 'no,' since I hit the snooze button a million times before getting out of bed. Were those extra minutes sleeping worth it? Um, no. I need to remember this for next time.
6. "Maybe the professor canceled class."
There's always that moment of hope when you check your school email before you realize, nope, the professor has not canceled class. Or, of course, the euphoric feeling when you can fall back into bed because they have!
7. "I'm too tired to learn anything."
Seriously, how can the university or your professor expect you to learn anything when you can barely keep your eyes open? It's a miracle you're not snoring on your desk every class.
8. "I'm never doing this again."
Seriously, never again. At least, that's what I tell myself.