I'm a person of habit. I don't usually branch out and try new things. Besides being a big baby when it comes to trying new foods and drinks, I'm also severely allergic to cow milk products. Due to my fear of wasting money on things that I don't like (and potentially dying of getting super sick from accidentally consuming whole milk), I don't tend to try many things. However, a friend recently convinced me to give more drinks at our school's Starbucks a try. I went to PETA to find a credible source on vegan drinks at Starbucks (if it's vegan, then it's definitely not going to have cow milk in it). My research directed me to the soy hazelnut frappuccino. Here are my thoughts while trying my new favorite Starbucks drink for the first time:

1. Can I even afford this?

2. Anything over a tall is too much of a commitment, I think I'm just going to get a tall.

3. What the hell is a hazelnut even? Like what does that even taste like?

4. Can I google what things taste like?

5. Can I trust Google to direct me to where a credible source on what this drink tastes likes?

6. I'm too lazy to pull out my phone.

7. Do I even know how to pronounce "frappuccino"?

8. I've been pronouncing açai wrong for like 4 months now, I'm probably going to screw this up.

9. What if I just say frapp? Is that too pretentious?

10. Am I cool enough to say things like "frapp"? I don't feel like I've earned that yet.

11. Okay, just order it.

12. Why's this line so long?

13. You can still back out.

14. No! You're a grown woman and you're going to order this drink, gosh darn you!

15. What is "womanhood" anyway?

16. Okay, I did it.

17. Could I put this on my resume? "2 years of editing experience, writer for Odyssey, orders new vegan drinks on her own."

18. I said soy, right?

19. I think I said soy.

20. Why do you always second guess yourself? You said soy! You practiced this! You rehearsed it!

21. They're going to give me milk.

22. Yeah, they're going to give me milk. I'm going to die.

23. There's an "s." I saw her put an "s."

24. "S" is for soy, right?

25. What if "s" is for "super extreme mega whole milk"?

26. That doesn't make sense.

27. This is taking way longer than I thought it would.

28. Why's she putting it in a blender?

29. Is that a dairy free, non-contaminated blender? She rushed me with my order. I didn't even get a chance to tell her I'm allergic.

30. I'm gonna die.

31. "Here lies Liz Johnston, died from cross contaminated, milky Starbucks drink."

32. I'm sure she knows what she's doing. I'm pretty sure she knows what she's doing. I'm positive.

33. Trust your barista, trust yourself.

34. That's, my name! That's my name!

35. Okay, I can do this.

36. Thank your barista, take a sip, and don't die.

37. Just sip it.

38. Stop staring at it weirdo, drink it.

39. Okay, I'm gonna sip it.

40. I think I'll sip it later.

41. No, it's a cold drink. You have to sip it now.

42. What is sipping?

43. Why do we call it sipping?

44. Really, Liz? Just drink it!

45. I'm going to drink it.

46. Holy mother of Beyoncé Knowles-Carter, this is gross!

47. What did I do?

48. This was a mistake.

49. I gotta just finish it now.

50. This isn't that bad. It's starting to grow on me.

51. I can get through this.

52. I can't finish this before class though.

53. Can I even drink this in class?

54. I pay enough to drink whatever I want whenever I want.

55. Omg, what is someone in class is allergic to hazelnut?

56. Is that even a thing?

57. I'm pretty sure this is artificial flavoring. I didn't see any nuts back there.

58. You're overreacting.

59. I like this drink.

60. Can people hear me sipping?

61. I'm almost out!

62. Okay, they totally heard me sipping.

63. Screw it, who cares! This is good!

64. You know what, I'm going to get another one after class.

65. This was a great idea. I'm glad that I did this!