It's 2019, And I've Already Had My First Depressive Episode

It's 2019, And I've Already Had My First Depressive Episode

Mental health is my main priority for this year

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I wasn't feeling anything close to empty on New Year's Eve. The sparkle and shine distracted me and by the time noon came the next day, a rug was pulled from under my heels and I felt empty.

I hadn't dealt with an episode like this in a while and didn't expect 2019 to begin with trying to pull myself out of a hole I didn't dig. I found myself on a bathroom floor crying my eyes out, calling my boyfriend to vent. I felt disgusting and unproductive. The idea of the new year equivocating to a fresh start is something that has always troubled me. You can't put a blanket over everything that has happened in the past year, especially something as fragile as mental health. Still, nothing from my past could have prepared me for an episode like this. I found myself stuck in my head, feeling no self-worth, and no happiness. The only thing I wanted to do was go to bed and even with that, I didn't get to sleep till nearly 3 in the morning. I tend to put an immense amount of pressure on myself in these situations to get happy and tough it out, but sometimes that just isn't possible.

My resolution for this year is to put my mental health first and to seek help when I need it. Always remember you don't have to go through anything alone and there is always someone who is going through something similar. You don't need a new year to put your mental health first. Whether you are reading this in January or July, mental health should never be put to the side and it should always be a priority. If you are reading this and are dealing with mental health I support you and hope you find the support you need. 2019 will be the year of prioritizing mental health.

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A simply sweet story about finding more joy because I was inspired by a friend's beautiful heart, and I hope that you too are inspired and find what makes you happy.

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I was inspired by a friend the other day to write this post. It's so funny how some people seem to bring out the best in us or that words they say can trigger us. Meeting up with my old friend and reconnecting always brings an overwhelming amount of joy.

Here are my recommendations to bring around better vibes!!!

1. I'm recommending being around high-quality people. Personally, I'm most joyful when I'm around people that bring me up and who love and support me. This sounds like a duh, but seriously we have all had that friend or so-called friend who really doesn't do that for us. So my number one tip would be to find friends that seek to make you rise. That tell you when your behavior needs checking. That celebrated with and for you when your accomplished something. That cry by your side when things are not right, it may be a boy, a job gone bad, a failed paper, big or small they have your back. So find yourself your girl gang. Mines small, but I have complete trust in them and that's what makes all the difference.

2. Practice being joyful. What I mean by this is if your not very happy fake it and keep PRACTICING being happy. Eventually, you will be. So how do you practice being happy?

Journal what you're thankful for.
Do a random act of kindness for someone else.
Being the bigger person.
Pray.
Give people genuine compliments.
Smile.

Trust me these little or simple things can brighten your day.

3. Realize that you're not alone. There are so many people around us so when you find the right ones talk to them. Get out whatever is holding you back off your chest. Tell someone you trust what's up and I'd recommending praying too. There is so much out there that's bigger than ourselves and many people can relate to you so, don't be afraid to ask for help or advice if you need it. As well try not to get too down on yourself.

4. Find peace in your heart. This doesn't mean forget what hurt you or allow a toxic person in your life but to be present and in the moment you need to settle your past. Make sure that you are forgiving to others and that you be a bigger person, to move forward.

5. Give to others. The next thing I'd recommend is to serve someone else. It always feels good after to give your time, support, a gift, or wisdom to someone that's in need of it. I know you are looking to be happier but sometimes the way to unlock this is by helping someone else so seek to always be kind to others. Only seeking more for yourself leads to selfishness and greed which ultimately never are going to leave you fulfilled.

6. Lastly, I'd recommend listening to happy music, helpful podcasts, go to church, or pick up a new exciting hobby, such a painting. Just do something that makes you feel good.

Hopefully, these tips help to make you find more happiness in your everyday life. They are simple and very Manageable if you just make the time to do them.

Best of luck girlies, xoxo

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21 Things To Be Happy About Right Now

There's always a reason to smile.

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Sometimes, we need a reminder of how lucky and fortunate we are to live the lives we live. It's refreshing to take a step back and remember... life is pretty damn good.

1. You have internet access. 

Since you're reading this, I can confirm you have access to the internet. You have the ability to connect with virtually anyone you want, explore and learn about any subject, and engage in social media. 51% of the world does not have this luxury.

2. You know how to read.

17% of the world is illiterate.

3. Sawyer got exactly what he wanted for Christmas--a large bottle of ketchup.

He was so happy, he was moved to tears.

4. The sun rises every single morning.

5. Suicide rates are falling.

According to The Economist, "global suicide rates have fallen 29% since 2000."

6. Animals exist.

7. Someone looks up to you.

You might not see them down there, but they surely see you.

8. Coffee exists.

9. Your best friend's laugh.

10. The "class is cancelled" email.

11. Books are not doing away any time soon.

According to the Good News Network, book sales are up for the fifth year in a row.

12. Fridays.

13. A dog was reunited with his mom after a forest fire.

This baby waited days at the site where his home burned down for his family to come back. When the owners were cleared to go back to their land, Madison was there to welcome them.

14. Warm brownies with ice cream.

15. The first warm spring day after a harsh winter.

16. Amazing hair days.

You're flawless.

17. Calling your mom to cry it out.

18. Christmas time.

19. Munchkin cats are a thing.

Look at those wittle leggies. How can you not be a little happier after that?

20. Someone loves you.

21. You're alive.

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