This semester has been a strange one for me. Maybe it's the fact that many of my friends are going to be graduating next semester while I head off to Spain, or maybe it's just hitting me that the expectations I had for my college experience are turning out to be a lot different than the reality of college. Either way, it's been a mix of emotions, and this is my attempt to nail down some of the strangeness of this year thus far.

1. How am I already a Junior?
2. I AM GOING TO RULE THE SCHOOL AND HAVE FUN WITH ALL THESE FRIENDS I'VE MADE!
3. My friends have no time for me, and I have no time for my friends.
4. Who are all these people?
5. I don't know anybody.
6. They're all giggling.
7. Oh, they're freshmen.
8. Yes, I study Communication.
9. No, I am not a freshman.
10. I promise I'm social, but I'm going to close my door now and probably every day after this.
11. If you need me, I'll be in the library.
12. Is this my fourth or fifth coffee of the day? *sips then shrugs*
13. Coffee really is the reason I'm a good person.
14. I have SO much to do!!!!!
15. I'm just going to lay in my bed for two minutes. Just rest.
16. Shit. I slept for three hours.
17. So, I have officially calculated that if I wear everything I own in my closet in the next few weeks, I won't have to do a laundry until fall break.
18. Fall break where are you.
19. Fall break please stay where you are.
20. Is the plural form of syllabus "syllabuses" or "syllabi?"
21. My lack of motivation rivals the lack of parking spaces on this campus.
22. Pshh, I am junior, I can bs this textbook.
23. AMAZON DONT FAIL ME NOW!
24. How is it I already feel like I'm behind in every class?
25. It's ok, September doesn't count.
26. Why is attendance mandatory?
27. Welp, there goes my last skip for that class.
28. I think I have the wrong bank account here, this can't be mine.
29. *scrolls through purchases* Oh. Yes, that is me.
30. Chipotle, just take all my money at this point.
31. I need to stop buying food.
32. I am going to have self-control.
33. Ugh, this day was the worse.
34. *voice whispers* Treat yoself.
35. What is this ice cream doing in my hand?
36. I need to go to the gym now. Work this off.
37. This is such a good stress reliever!
38. I feel amazing!
39. Why do I not do this more often?
40. Ok: put it on the list, go to the gym more.
41. Oh but tomorrow I have that paper to write, and that meeting then that group project--when does the gym close again?
42. Group projects are the bane of my existence.
43. How are these people in college?
44. I really do worry for them.
45. I also hate them with the heat of a thousand suns.
46. It's fine, though, I'll just compose myself, do everything, and then it'll all be over.
47. Great. Another group project.
48. I truly am one coffee away from a mental breakdown.
49. How am I supposed to survive college and these clowns?!!
50. At least then I won't have to face life after college.
51. I'm laughing so I won't cry.
52. I don't know why I get excited about weekends. They just come and go and leave me with more stuff to do.
53. Awe. Look at that cute couple over there.
54. No the one behind the creepy couple.
55. Why do I not have something like that?!
56. *reality hits* I have no life and I barely self-care.
57. Netflix has taught me how to multitask: watch all three seasons while writing a 10-page paper.
58. Social anxiety is so crippling.
59. Why do I care? I wear pajamas to class.
60. God bless those professors that drop the lowest grade.
61. What happened to me? I used to go out on Friday nights.
62. Damn. I look good today.
63. But I am secretly falling apart inside.
64. So like, can there be a snow day soon?
65. If college has taught me anything, it has been to become comfortable with the constant state of always being on edge.
66. I promise I'm sane.
67. Wow! I can go to bed early tonight!
68. *stays up until 3am having a philosophical conversation about social stigmas*
69. Now my eyes are closing, and I can't think of anything to say about this paper on ethical issues.
70. I am so impressed I am in class right now.
71. I am so impressed I got dressed this morning.
72. How is it that two-page papers take me longer than 10 pages?
73. Thank God for music. Distracts me from my sad life.
74. I am going to count that solo dance party in my room as my visit to the gym.
75. I think I wore this shirt on Tuesday. But it's fine, I won't see anyone from my Tuesday class.
76. The thought on replay in the back of the mind of every college student: Help me, I'm poor.
77. I have $30 in my account. It's fine, though, I babysit tomorrow.
78. She canceled on me.
79. *gets up, sees its raining* I'm feeling today is a stay in bed all day kind of day.
80. I miss mom.
81. Dad too, but he doesn't cook me food.
82. Cookie dough will always be the answer to my problems.
83. If over thinking was a skill, I'd be a pro.
84. Yes, I would love to go out and do something tonight!!
85. My bank account says no, but my heart says yes.
86. Going with my heart. Gotta make those college memories.
87. I kinda feel like my college memories are lame.
88. I really should live a little more so I can tell my kids stories about those glory days.
89. But like, my chance of having kids right now is slim. Forever alone isn't a joke. Neither is college.
90. Also, I can barely keep a fish alive right now.
91. Also, how is it that these days can creep by and yet it's already October?
92. I really want to enjoy this season of Fall, but all I have time for is pumpkin spice coffee.
93. This coffee tastes like a candle.
94. I'll just put a pumpkin outside my door.
95. Never mind pumpkins are expensive.
96. I have this paper due, but I should really take this time to start thinking about my Halloween costume.
97. *gets lost in the black hole of Pinterest* Time to DIY it all.
98. I think I'm going to curl up in a blanket and get overwhelmed by all the things I have to do.
99. My calendar has like text 5 font, and it still can't fit all my responsibilities.
100. Please, wake me up when the semester ends.

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