Looking at the old me and wondering how I got here

When I See You, I Don't See Me

Looking at myself and all I can see is a stranger.


I stumbled across this photo in one of those memory/Time Hop sorta apps. Circa Summer of 2012. Even though six years ago doesn't seem all that long ago, I look at this photo and just think about how it has been ages since I was that person.

All things considered, I do still squint when I smile. I do still love a black french tip and it is still my go-to nail salon choice and I still usually will always be wearing a watch.

However, when I look at this picture, I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when it was taken, and it's not something I am proud of. It's something I wish I could go back and remove myself from the situation. If I could give my 19-year-old self some advice, I would tell her to steer clear of that troublemaker and not offer to sit outside the Lexington county detention center waiting to pick him up after he was released from prison.

That girl, had no cares, no problems, and no ambitions. That girl was quite content living out her first taste of independence and freedom. She was happy not having to check in with anyone, happy not to have someone telling her what to do. But you know where that got her?

Nowhere. What was a summer of fun and fearlessness, slowly turned into moving into her sister's house because she had nowhere else to go. It turned into drug addictions and loneliness. It led to losing close friends and losing herself.

I guess what goes up must come down, and thankfully when you're down all you have left is going up. So when fall rolled around I let my teens lay to rest and started fresh for my 20th birthday. I would not allow myself to fall back into the same traps. That boy later went back into prison and still today, I have to call every six months and have my number re-blocked so that I am not able to be reached.

I wish the girl in this picture would have worked harder to better herself versus trying to mend every broken thing she saw. It wasn't my job to finish every started project, when the only one I needed to be concerning myself with, was mine.

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A Beginner's Guide to Milwaukee Sports

Part I: The Bucks


Being a college student in Milwaukee has its perks, especially for sports fans. Now, while some may have brought their hometown teams to college, others (myself included) may have warmed up to the Cream City teams without knowing much about them. If this is the case for you, then these pointers can help you start enjoying Milwaukee basketball without looking and sounding like a bandwagon fan.

Quick History


Here are some facts about the Bucks that can make you feel more knowledgeable about the franchise:

- They have only won one championship (back in 1971) and have lost one NBA Finals series (1974) (Land of Basketball)

- They have only had one* MVP-caliber player in Kareem Abdul-Jabbar (#33) during the 1971, 1972, and 1974 seasons (Land of Basketball)

- Other Notable Players Include: Oscar Robertson (#1), Sidney Moncrief (#4), Jon McGlocklin (#14) and Ray Allen (#34) (Land of Basketball)

*Giannis Antetokounmpo may win the MVP award this year

sited: https://www.landofbasketball.com/teams/milwaukee_bucks.htm

Gear Up


This one is a bit of a no-brainer. Wearing team's colors or spirit wear is a must, especially if you're going to a game. Most items like hats and t-shirts are perfectly acceptable, and these are great if you're not trying to break the bank. Buying your gear from a sporting goods store will usually be cheaper than buying them from the team store (the main one of which is located in Fiserv Forum). Most online stores like NBA.com, Fanatics, Fansedge, and sometimes even the team's online store will have sales on sports gear, so getting a good deal on team wear is always a plus!

A Word of Caution: Jerseys

All three of these players are not part of the 2018-2019 roster and #77 and #3 have been reused by current players Ersan Ilyasova (#77) and George Hill (#3)


If you're willing to go the extra mile, buying a jersey can really get you into locked in and pumped for the live action. However, it should be kept in mind that official Nike NBA jerseys range from $110-$250, so they definitely are an investment. While there are other options available like the FastBreak jerseys by Fanatics, they are a simpler (still official) knockoff of the Nike jerseys. Also; beware buying sale jerseys. There are usually three reasons why jerseys are ever on sale (aside from a storewide sale): a player is injured, a player doesn't play much and is about to be traded, or a player has been traded. While there is nothing wrong with having the jersey of a player who went on to another team (like Kareem and Allen), you are not exactly going to get brownie points for wearing a Jabari Parker or a Thon Maker jersey anytime soon.

Know The Current Squad

Fiserv Forum, Home of the Milwaukee Bucks


Everyone in Milwaukee has heard of Giannis Antetokounmpo, but who else is part of the supporting cast?

Starting Five for the 2018-2019 Milwaukee Bucks (Basketball Reference):

- #6 Eric Bledsoe at Point Guard

- #13 Malcolm "The President" Brogdon at Shooting Guard

- #22 Khris "Money" Middleton at Small Forward

- #34 Giannis "The Greek Freak" Antetokounmpo at Power Forward

- #11 Brook "Splash Mountain" Lopez at Center

Student Perk


Using your university email, you can get special discount ticket offers for home games by signing up for the Bucks' Student Rush Program. Tickets usually start at $15 per ticket, and the seats available may depend on who the Bucks are playing (and how well they are doing during the season).

Get Involved and Have Fun!

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Don't be afraid to get into it! The Bucks are an amazing team to watch and they love Bucks Nation. In addition to cheering at games, going to team events and player appearances can be great ways to make memories and even get an autograph or two!

Are You a Bucks Fan Now?🦌


I think Giannis would agree!

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